Monday, October 4, 2010

#198 Lil Emily


Lil Emily woke up in a fright,
It was raining heavily in the middle of the night.
Lil Emily had a nightmare,
She found herself wrapped in her own hair.
Lil Emily reached out for her teddy bear;
But all she grasped on was air.
Lil Emily shut her eyes,
Hoping to dream of sweets, toys and butterflies.
But all she saw was;
Monster, giants and evil dwarfs.

"Mommy!" Lil Emily cried as she jumped out of bed,
Lil Emily rushed to find her mom
But she found her dead.
"Daddy!" Lil Emily cried.
She found him in the kitchen with blood and realized he died.
She saw two black sockets,
Where are his eyes?
She rushed out like a speeding rocket.
Lil Emily tripped on a ball;
She banged her head on the wall.
Lil Emily got up and saw
A couple of eyeballs by the door.

Lil Emily howled in despair,
And she shut her eyes;
Hoping it was but a terrible nightmare.
But she knows she's telling lies.
Lightning flashes across the sky;
Lil Emily don't know where to hide.
She wishes she could fly,
And leave this nightmare behind.
Lil Emily wonders who would want to do this;
She'll make them pay with her tiny fists.
Suddenly she saw a man by the pillar,
Could this be her parent's killer?

He was drenched head to toe by the rain,
And he saw Lil Emily looking like she's in pain.
"Emily!" He cried
As he rushed by her side.
Lil Emily saw it was her brother,
Her heart pounded and she felt a lil better.
"Brother, brother, did you see?
What happened to mommy and poor daddy?"
"Yes I did, Lil Emily.
I wonder who would do this to our family."
He reached out to his side
And took out a knife he hide.
"Goodbye dear Emily," He whispered
Down comes the knife and Lil Emily was butchered.

Lil Emily woke up in a fright,
What an unpleasant night!
"Mommy! Daddy!" Lil Emily cried
But no one rushed to her side.
Lil Emily went down to find them;
And she found them lying side by side.
Her brother come out of no where,
As Lil Emily broke down and cried.
She looked upward and saw her brother standing there,
With dry leaves in his hair.
"Brother! Brother! Why!?" Lil Emily yelled.
She wrinkled her nose due to the foul smell.
Lil Emily rushed to hit him,
Oh Lil Emily, how could you be so dim?

He smirked as she ran,
Thinking of an awful way to kill her.
Should he toss her towards a moving fan?
Or maybe a smother her with dog fur?
Should he give her a horrible way to die
By letting her being rapped by another guy?
Lil Emily pounded her fists on his chest,
Crying as she did so.
Killing her straight will be the best,
He's feeling tired and cold.
Maybe he should end this with one strike.
He first gave her hair a little stroke,
He did not put up a fight.
Out came his gun,
As he pointed to Lil Emily's head.
Blowing her brains out will be fun
But the mess on his shirt will not be undone.

He went out of the house,
Bloody and all.
He did not look down as he stepped on a mouse,
He did not see Lil Emily got up from her fall.
He did not hear Lil Emily picked up a knife,
He did not hear her sneak up from behind;
Until he heard a twig snapped.
Could it be the wind?
When he turned around he saw Lil Emily,
Her brains was blown out yet she still lives.
Dear Lil Emily, why walked so quietly?
Is it because of the knives you carry?
Lil Emily came back from the dead;
It wasn't her time to go away.
Lil Emily jumped up and trusts her knives in her brother's head
On his own blood he then lay.

Lil Emily now walks alone.
With no one by her side except her faithful knives.
You'll see her by her parent's gravestone,
The only Lil Emily whom survives.

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Whew.
Was having my accounts exams when it hit me. :D
Poor undead Lil Emily. :)

Hit me :D

Saturday, October 2, 2010

#197 Fear My Sword















Oh gosh.
It's been a very boring week for me
And I actually studied my history.
Don't give me that look.
I study, okay? :3
I'm aiming to get better than last time marks :)

Been pretty depressed lately.
Am not sure why.
Must be the disease I'm having inside me.
How do I currently feel right now?
Well,
I feel like that there is a small tornado inside of me;
Waiting for me to unleashed it.
Bit by bit that is.
Yet,
I feel this small satisfaction inside of me.
A smug smile always appear on my face
When someone does something wrong.
What the hell is wrong with me?
Am I some kind of crazy and weird being?
Who only appear to be happy when others are in pain?
Do I really care what other felt?
Do I really want to help others?
If so, was it out of kindness?
Was it out of compassion?
Or I just want to stir things up a little?
I'm a weirdo.

I'm grateful for Syaa and Lai Kwan
To listen to my complains.
But I feel guilty.
Guilty of burdening them with my stupid matters.

"It's just a small matter," I said.
"If it's small, then why are you depressed?" Lai Kwan shot back.

I don't know, Lai Kwan.
I just don't know.


I'm a weirdo

Friday, October 1, 2010

#196 Hurt Once Too Many Times


I don't know.
Life's being hard on me now.
What should I do?

People tend to think me as annoying.
I think I'm annoying.
Here comes the emo me. Again
God.
I feel like jumping off a freaking building or something.

Ben hurt me with his words today.
I know,
I know.
It's a small matter.
But it hurts ya know?

What did I do to make even Ben
Can't stand me?
What!?
Is it because I'm annoying?
Is it because I'm a bitch?
What is it, damn it!
What!?

If I've known that I'm such a pain in the ass,
I would have been gone for such a long time ago.
Why did I even thought that I could fight it?
This.
Is the sign of defeat
And I hate admit that.

I want to go back to the way it was.
It maybe a little better.
Maybe right now I know my silly little mistakes;
I could fix them.
If only I can go back to the past and fix everything.
Every stupid, silly little mistakes I've made.

Why the hell am I feeling this again!?
WHY!?

Sometimes,
My emotions follows the weather.
Partially the rain.
When it rains,
I feel fucking depressed.
Why?
I have no clue.
I think I have some kind of disease
That makes me feel depressed from time to time for no
Particular reasons.

I hate to admit that.

Monday, September 27, 2010

#195 Wanted : Uchiha Sasuke


Wanted: Uchiha Sasuke.
Crime  : He stole my heart from me. 
Bring him back alive and alive only.
Payment for bringing him back alive is RM0.01.

Yes!
That's adorable Sasuke.
I utterly love him!
Although he's not real,
But whatever.

Bought a Sasuke sword keychain at Anime Tech
And I absolutely loving it!
I'm going to buy more!
It's going to be like a tiny collection of mine :D
Yes,
Yes.
I'm obsess. 
Got a problem with that? :P
I love you, Sasuke ♥

I utterly love him.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

#194 Fake A Smile



Twice in a row;
I've been hurt.
Twice in a row;
I've cried my eyes out.

It's kinda been a long time
Since I actually cried in school.
Of all things,
I cried over a small matter.
I can't seem to control my emotions anymore.
Especially, that one.

To tell the truth,
I was really frustrated at that time.
I mean it's a silly game.
But, I have feelings and a limit.
I'm after all
A human.

I tried to act tough just so
People can't see how weak I am inside.
I feel offended easily
Even if people don't really meant it.
I keep things in my heart;
Never really letting other people know how I feel.

I wanted to be listened too
And not be a listener.
I want to be part of everyone's life;
To let them acknowledge me.
I'm here.
I'm not invisible.

I don't want to be popular;
I just want to fit in with everyone else.
I don't want to be left out;
But I want to be unique.

I tried being nice to you;
Yet you've offended me with your words.
If you're reading this,
I'm sorry for being worried and wanting to help you.
It'll never happen again,
I promise.

I've now know
What kind of people that surrounds me.
There are nice;
Mean;
Ungrateful;
Funny;
Selfish;
Two-Faced;
Appreciative;
And a few listeners.

"I can't even open up myself to anybody,
Let alone you."

That hurts.
You know that?
That hurts.
And I doubt you noticed.

I told my mom about it yesterday.
From the thing in school to the text.
I felt embarrassed crying in front of her.
She just smiled;
Pat my shoulder
And hugged me.

"It's okay, Kim. You're changing, I can tell.
Don't let these kind of people pull you down.
Not even her. She doesn't appreciate that you're
Trying to help her. Ignore her. Okay?"

Little Sun crying out for help :(














I cried harder;
Touched by the words she said.


Thanks for listening to me, Mom.


I promise.

Friday, September 24, 2010

#193 Salute!


My dad got this helmet from Vietnam,
I think.
He told me that the helmet is what
The Nazi's wore last time.

My dad.
Has a thing with hats.
Like Father like Daughter :D


ATTENTION! :D

Like father like daughter

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

#192 Burning Love



Today's Moon Cake Festival.
Was playing with candles all alone. :(
My mom went to fetch my sister from college
So, I'm alone at home.

Yay candles and matches! :D


Moon Cake Festival

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

#191 More Signs



There it is again.
In a way it's the same question.
I wonder how long will this lasts. :(

School today was a drag.
A side from teachers teaching,
Ash, Huiling, Huiyee, Karmen, Kamen, Bryan
And I played police and robbers.
It was funny and stupid at the same time.

Bryan was so adorable when he first play with us.
He gave the innocent face and all.
When Kamen got killed,
He was like:
"Kamen got killed! Oh my God! Kamen got killed!"
Adorable. Haha.

Syaa listened to me when I told her about him again;
And that is why she is just so awesome. :D
Not many people tend to listen to me, you know.
So yeah.
AWESOME :D


Haha, Jerry doesn't want to get his paws wet.
I finished washing the car the other day
And I found him sitting like that.
So adorable

I wonder how long will this lasts :(

Monday, September 20, 2010

#190 A Sign?


That.
Is a very weird picture of me.
Oh well.
We can't all be beautiful right?
Anyways,
I wonder if it's a sign.
I wonder if it happen to him too.
:)
:)
:)
:)
:)
:)
:)

:)

Friday, September 17, 2010

#189 Untitled



Okay.
On Wednesday [15.09.10]
I went to Cineliesure wuth
Ai Pei, Shenny and Kent.
We watched Resident Eil
And it was so freaking awesome.
Kent and Shenny sat at the couple sit,
Leaving me and Ai Pei alone
But so what?
It's still awesome.
There are parts that I jumped from my chair.
Imagine how freaky it was.
And everytime I jump.
Ai Pei laughs at me.

Later,
Shenny has to go,
Kent went to meet up his friends
So Ai Pei and I walked around all five buildings
Including Tesco.
Yeah.
Tesco.

Went back around 5 in the evening. :)
And yeah.
It was a fun day.
I can't believe that the holidays are going to end soon.
Why? :(

Resident Evil was AWESOME!