#259 Don't Come Back At All

A few days ago,

I brought Jerry out and it started to rain.

First the wind picked up,

Brushing away the leaves that were in my path.

I felt somehow like a queen;

My invisible sweepers swept the floor just for me

To walk on.

The trees swayed,

Producing wonderful music.

I can't help but smile.

Out of the blue,

Rain started to pelt down.

Through out my journey to bring my dog to do his business,

I did not feel any rain drop on my face 

Until I reached home.

A rather 'daring' rain droplet kissed me on my lips.

I know it sounds like a fairytale

But I felt it that way.

I felt a splurge of happiness at that time.

I want to feel happy and not worried all the time.

Everything feels fucked up at the moment.

Not for me only,

For most people.

It's like we're going through a stupid moment of life.

A fucked up one.

Screw this shit man.

We're going through a stupid moment of life.

#258 Jar Of Hearts

Well it seems like things are getting shittier and shittier at
This shitty moment.
There isn't much to day, I guess.
Trying my best to shut up and not talk about it.
After all,
I'm tired of listening to myself telling other people my damn
Problem.

The way it goes,
I don't think I'll be missing it anymore.
Yeah well,
Whatever.

Been playing with photoshop just now :)
Nothing much to say here though. :/

I'm tired of listening to myself telling other people my damn problems.

#257 Misunderstood

Oh my gosh!
I say I-Say-Ah (don't know how to spell his name)
Today and his sister, Zoey remembers me :3

Thought you said it's immature to two face people
Yet you do the same.
Ironic isn't it?
I really don't understand you
Yet I wish I could
So we could avoid all this misunderstanding.

I hope we're friends
And not call each other names and all that crap.
And to think I hope you're my friend
Though I knew that at times,
I've crossed the boarder line right?
And for that,
I apologize.
I don't know my limits
And I don't know yours.

I've turned a blind eye
And a deaf ear towards you.
It's like only one side I can hear you
When you're talking to me;
Yet a deaf and blind part?
I'll turn that to you if you gossip or what so ever.

No,
I don't hate you.
I just think you've misunderstood me.
Or maybe me misunderstood you.
Either one right?

Well whatever.
I got accepted.
Lord gave me a couple of comforting words he could offer.
Well,
It feels good to actually be heard.
It makes me feel as though I exists;
Not invisible.
Not anymore.
Actually,
It's kinda comforting to have someone to worry about me.
Haha.
Sounds wrong right?
But whatever. :)

I'm thinking of buying a tripod.
Yeah,
That's like damn random
But it's been going on in my mind for quite some time.
You know what?
I've a feeling this is going to be quite a long post.
Maybe it's because of my rants and the fact that
I'm kinda bull shitting here :)

Well.
Some cosplay event is coming up.
It's like this Saturday.
And Tanisha's birthday is this Sunday.
I hope my mom allows me to go on both days
Considering the fact that I'm not going to be here anymore.

Well,
I'm clearing both my weekends for those particular events :)
Accounts tuition is gonna be shift on Friday night
And History tuition shall be on Sunday night after my dinner maybe?
Gah.
Mr Alex, you can finally give me tuition
Considering that I'm no longer here anymore :3

Lord gave me a couple of comforting words he could offer

#256 No Turning Back

It's done.
I didn't want too
But my parents insists that I should.

Maybe it's for the best.
Maybe I should be happy about it.
If only I could.

Mistreated, misunderstood, misplaced

#255 Fucking Perfect

Welcome to my silly life :)

Made a wrong turn, once or twice 
Dug my way out, blood and fire 
Bad decisions, that's alright 
Welcome to my silly life 
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood 
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down 
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated 
Look, I'm still around 

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel 
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect 
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing 
You're fuckin' perfect to me! 

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong 
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead 
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it! 
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game 
It's enough! I've done all I can think of 
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same 

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel 
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect 
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing 

You're fuckin' perfect to me 

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear 
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer 
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time 
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere 
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair 
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time 
Why do we do that? Why do I do that? 

Why do I do that..? 

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..! 
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel 
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect 
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel 
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me 
You're perfect, you're perfect! 
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing 
You're fuckin' perfect to me...

Oh Pink,
You really do understand my life, don't you?
That's the reason why I absolutely love your songs.

I've made my decision.
Will tell Tania and Tanisha tomorrow.
I hope they support it though.

Thanks Lord (my friend),
For finally putting some senses in me :)
And for that,
I'm really grateful and appreciate it :)

I hope I make the right decision
Instead of the wrong one.

I'm going stay strong,
No matter who or what tries to push me down.

Welcome to my silly life :)

#254 Happy Early Valentine's Day

I got them for Tania and Tanisha.
Happy Valentine's Day girls!
Sorry I can't see you guys tomorrow,
There's something I need to do.
Sorry :/

Had a family reunion yesterday
And it was alright :)
Amber came and I forgotten to bring my
Camera.
What a shame.
Oh wells.

If I get the chance,
Should I change?
There's always pros and cons.
Which one will be a bigger risk?

Happy Valentine's Day

#253 Who Do You Think You Are?

You're her.
So called popular.

Oh my God!
Kimberly is so mean!

It's my nature.
Deal with it :)
Ain't my fault you're sensitive.

Whatever.
I'm done listening to you people
Bitch talk about me.
I'm done listening to you assholes
Bitching about my friends.
I'm done with you lifeless people.
Lifeless.

I'm alright.
I'm fine.
Wait.
No.
I'm not alright,
Neither am I fine.
I'm Kimberly Too
And I'm going to walk with my head held up high,
Chest puff out and stride a rather confident stride.

I bought a freaking red housing! ♥
Something I've been wanting for such a long time! ♥
Yes! ♥
Got no time to change the cover
And I don't know how to.
No!

Must take it to some phone shop to change it.
Gosh.
I haven done my stupid accounts homework.
What Da Fark!?
Too lazy to do it now.
Maybe tomorrow
When I have the mood.
Note to self:
Wake up at 7 in the morning
To do house chores and homework :)

I'm done listening to you people

#252 The Big Bitch

I'm no idiot.

I can perfectly hear every single blardy word

You people said.

The fact you guys actually drop hints?

Yeah,

Thanks for confirming whom are you guys talking bitching about.

You know,

I don't hate you guys at all.

Nope.

I just hate the fact that you guys seriously having nothing 

To do but to find something to gossip about.

I hate you people's attitude,

Can't you all like shut up for once 

And drop the damn sarcasm?

It's not only annoying but it's also so old.

No er, no er, not old er.

Fuck you.

You guys are such two faced bitches/bastards.

No, I don't.

I just sit here for the fan.

I hate her hair!

It's like a coconut.

She's such a bitch!

Um, like hello?

I'm like right beside you?

I'm not being perasan but;

I just sit here for the fan.

Um yeah.

Dead give away much?

Word of advice bitches,

If you guys want to bitch about someone,

Make sure that person doesn't hear it?

TYVM!

I'm pissed off,

Frustrated,

Hurt

And so much more.

I tried to be nice to you people;

I try to help you guys as much as possible.

What did I get in return?

Being bitched about.

Like fuck you.

Chinese New Year 

Haven even end and yet here I am,

Drowning in my own sorrows;

Crying my eyes out;
Spilling useless tears over the likes of you.

I've done nothing wrong.

If I did, 

I'll know it or maybe

You'll just fucking tell me and save all the trouble?

You guys a pretenders;

Fake;

Plastics...

You're going to regret.

I swear.

You assholes are so gonna regret.

Regret bitching about me,

Bitching about Tania,

Bitching about a whole lot more people.

Hey, Ben.

If you hate me so much, why do you sit at my place?

I want you to answer that.

Word of advice bitches,

If you guys want to bitch about someone,

Make sure that person doesn't hear it?

#251 Sasukim

Ain't it adorable?

It's me on the way to kiss Sasuke on the cheek :3

Unfortunately,

Manda's friend put me too tan D:

But whatever :)

I'm back from Penang! 

Actually,

I arrived home last night but I was

Too lazy to blog and all. 

Cause baby you're a fiiiirework~!

Penang people likes to smoke alot o.o

I have a pervert face -.-

Anywho,

I'm lazy to blog now.

Lol.

Sasukim ♥

#250 Hair Cut

I has cut my hair! :)

Layered bangs :)

Going to Penang tomorrow

And I kinda dread it.

Somehow,

This CNY doesn't feel like

CNY at all.

Everywhere is so quiet and

There is not much red lantern.

No fireworks,

No nothing.

It's so quiet...

It's so quiet