#322 Compliments

Honestly, I should be damn happy now that my trails are halfway over.
Yet, I feel nothing but resentment.
Sure, the familiar bitter feeling is coming back once again.
Then again, why should I not be bitter?
I feel...
Like I lack of something...
Not sure what but whatever right?
I don't need to be praised and all that crap
After all,
We're not in a competition.
But how could I?
I have these compete thingy in me,
Like I have to compete with someone I know I would lose too.
Honestly,
I just can't stop.

I'm a sucker when it comes to compliments,
When it comes to praising.
Maybe it's because I rarely receive kind words or something.

Oh wells.
Maybe the others are right.
Maybe I'm an attention seeker.
But I currently don't give a shit (:
Why?
Cause I will not have my walls crumbling down on my feet
Just because I feel... depressed.
No,
Instead, higher, better walls (:
That is what I really need now.

I'm a sucker to compliments