#412 Burden

My cousin's niece.
Ain't she a cutie?

I've been thinking too much lately.
Seriously.

There is so many times on how I wish
My work will be noticed or something.
I mean,
I may not get likes in my facebook
Nor many favs in my Deviantart
But so many damn times,
I just wish;
Wish that people will start noticing on my work,
Telling me on how should I change and all.
It's so much better than being ignored and such.

I'm a nobody after all (:
No one will notice how I actually feel.
And my work are nothing but just trash
That I hold treasure in my heart.
No.
Other people will treasure and praise
Others on their artwork.
I'm feeling a bit envious here,
I won't lie about that.

Sometimes,
I wonder why I even bother to do such things.
Things like writing novels,
Short stories about my dreams,
Drawings on how I actually felt,
Poems that are from the deep cut in my heart.
Why?
Is it to just let everything out in a different way?
I wonder.
Why can't other people just see my work and
Tell me wonderful things or even try to correct me!?
Why?

I'm being thoughtless and selfish here.
No matter.
My feelings are mine to keep
And others to be deceived with.
My words that have formed into sentences,
Poems and stories are mine to read.
From now on,
It shall be Me, Myself and I.
No other people.
No anyone else.

I often wonder how is it like to be popular among others.
I know it's stressful for having the upkeep
But will I be a victim or I'll be the bully?
Why can't people stop misunderstanding me
And my actions?
I have reasons for the actions I do.
I might do something rash
But I'm human.
I'm not perfect.
I make mistakes.

Why don't others once see me as a good guy
Instead of a black sheep among the whites?
See?
This is why I watch anime or play games on my phone
Or distract myself with other stuff.
If not, I tend to think too much like now.
The songs I'm listening  aren't helping either.
Gosh.
I'm such an emo queen. (:

I'm sorry for having such an emo post though.
It's so me (:
I'm ruining my own mood here
So I shall go watch ONE PIECE.
HELL YEAH!
One of the anime where I actually laugh at the screen
And giggle like an idiot.
I'm off.
I'm done thinking about others and I shall be more
Selfish from now on.
I shall think of me, me, me and ME only.
That way, I might be able to survive this cruel world.
With my own poems and stories as my guides and pasts.

OFF TO ONE PIECE!

#411 Knite and Inspiration

No images for this post.
But links.

http://yuumei.deviantart.com/art/Knite-Inherit-the-Stars-176113149?q=gallery%3Ayuumei%2F24250483&qo=9

A beautiful song wrote by this dude,

http://yuumei.deviantart.com/gallery/24250483

Where are the Stars by ~geo1992 v1 The world's tears have been dried up By the hands of our machines I asked the birds why They come here every spring I search for the silver lining ( of a blue sky I'll never see) But its lost in all the bindings (of a monster I can never flee) c1 Where are the stars in  the endless blight? The guardians of a dark night Hidden behind, our construction All that i see, our destruction Where are the stars in  the endless blight? The guardians of the dark night The industrial smoke, its choking me Can anyone hear my lonely plea V2 The water that's blue like sapphire Is tainted by a liquid fire The trees will never grow tall As we watch them burn and fall With the sky paint black by smog (my blood is tainted with a toxic fog) I want to see  the clear blue sky (before I watch it all shrivel  and die) c1 Where are the stars in  the endless blight? The guardians of a dark night Hidden behind, our construction All that i see, our destruction Where are the stars in  the endless blight? The guardians of the dark night The industrial smoke, its choking me Can anyone hear my lonely plea Breakdown Where are they? Can't see them Bright lights in an empty sky Am I blind Or am I lost My wish it to see the stars Lets light it up The dark sky With the wind of a new age There they are The shining lights I can finally see the lights c1 Where are the stars in  the endless blight? The guardians of a dark night Hidden behind, our construction All that i see, our destruction Where are the stars in  the endless blight? The guardians of the dark night The industrial smoke, its choking me Can anyone hear my lonely plea

That's his lyrics by the way.

http://yuumei.deviantart.com/

The wonderful artist who wrote Knite
Which truly inspired me.

http://yuumei.deviantart.com/gallery/24250483

Knite.

Love the artist and the will power
She holds as she stood up for what's right.
I look up to her as many other artists do.

Knite.

#410 My Life For The Stars

I used to love the night
Where the stars are shinning so bright.
Countless stars filtered the vast skies
Which seems like thousands of fireflies.

I often sat next to my window
With the stars that gives out a soft glow.
I smiled a smile that is so cheeky
As they smiled back to me.

By daytime I couldn't wait for the night to come
To talk to the stars and have some fun.
They twinkled with delight
When I told them many insights.

They are like diamonds upon the dark veil
With so many tales they have yet to tell.
But now what happened to them, I wondered
As my body gave a violent shuddered.

They no longer shone as bright as they used too
The inky sky is now dark like a black lagoon.
Not a hint of spark
In the sky that is so dark.

The lights that used to show me my way
Has left me astray.
Where are they?
I pondered on that question every night and day.

Thick black smoke has covered the stars
Which came from factories to small things like cigars.
I wish to see the stars
Which once was ours.

They are the diamonds in everyone's heart
And a marvelous piece of art
Though they are many miles apart
But they are still there doing their part.

Often I wish on my birthday
Before I grow old and fray,
To see the stars that are beautiful and gay
Even from a small walkway.

But my wish was in vain
As the smoke thickens everyday.
My heart was in pain
As day by day I grow gray.

Will I be able to once again see the stars
That is further than mars?
Am I able to gaze upon them;
Those beautiful gems.

My lifespan is shortening
And I fear it's coming to an ending.
Yet the sky is still so polluted
With thick smokes it has been coated.

My eyesight has begun to fail
And the stars are has became a mere folktale.
My breathing became uneven
As my body is beginning to weaken.

On the night I was preparing to die,
My grandchildren called up to me:
"Grandma, grandma, look at the sky!"
They said in glee.

I strained to open both my eyes
To look upon the polluted skies.
What I saw made me gasped out loud
And both my grandchildren gave out a gleeful shout.

"A diamond in the sky!"
Tears trickled down my right useful eye.
It was a star
That was so far.

It shone with all it's might
As though with the smoke, it's willing fight.
More and more stars began to appear
As fast as they disappear.

They twinkled with laughter
When they saw my shocked face.
And I started to feel calmer
For soon I'll be in their embrace.

My children and grandchildren were able to see the stars
That was once ours.
My wish has finally came true
From the polluted air, the stars breakthrough.

I died underneath the inky black sky
But I did not cry.
I did not feel despair
For it has come true, my prayer.

With the stars I am now
Shining as bright as I'm allowed.
Stars will no longer be mere folktales
But guardians that are guiding the sailors that sails.

♥

My life for the stars.
Was inspired by a comic called Knite.
Will post it up later.

Those beautiful gems.

#409 Pass Few Days

So, I've been missing from my blog for the past few days

And I'm glad to say I was really, extremely busy!

You see,

My family and I, which includes my

Cousin's family, went to Tanjung Malim

By using KTM on Monday (060212)

It was horrible and such.

There wasn't any aircon

And I made a terrible mistake by wearing my converse

Which pinches my feet over and over.

But overall, it was fun and tiring.

By the time we reached Tanjung Malim,

It was in the afternoon.

We had to walk and climb stairs since 

We don't have any cars or such.

It was horribly high and I almost died.

The sun was beating down on us

And it was no joke climbing those stairs.

After having tea time,

We went back to the train station and

It wasn't as packed as before.

My cousin and I were busy giggling about the standing egg

And the past events which were happy (:

I went to work on Tuesday (070212)

And it was alright.

I managed to make sales and it pleases me

When a customer praised me for doing such a good job.

Yesterday, (Wednesday 080212)

I followed my dad to his office in KL

Cause I wanted to shop at Pavillion.

My goal was to get two things and both of them are in red.

Unfortunately,

They don't have anymore

So I settled for the next best things.

I  wanted to get a pair of highcuts converse

And since they don't have red,

I just settled with whatever color they have left for my size.

Ain't they a beauty?

I had to use my own savings to buy 'em.

But it was worth every penny cause it

Didn't pinch my toes and such.

The canvas was comfortable too!

I was glad and excited about getting them.

I then went to have lunch with my dad at Sungei Wang.

We then went on a short shopping spree

And I bought a couple of handphone casing

Which couldn't be found at the market.

Aren't they a beauty?

I love the things I've bought and I don't have a single

Regret in me (:

I'm off to watch One Piece as I'm hook

On to it again.

Let the chase begin!

Not a hint of regrets (:

#408 Giggles and Laughters

Currently at work now.
Last night
Or rather this morning was epic.
I never smiled so much infront of the computer
Before.
It was really epic.

First the egg thing then the chat thing.
I had to look back and reread it a few times
To actually convince myself if it's true
And not some weird dream I normally have.

I'm smiling to myself right now as I type this out.
Last night,
My dad sat on the chair by the dinning table
Which is opposite me.
He then suddenly yelped and jumped
A few feet back from his chair and was staring
At the bananas intensively.
I was surprised and I yelled
WHAT THE HELL
Really loudly and I stared at my dad.
I then asked him what happened and he told me,
"Lizard,"

I saw a rather small lizard scamparing towards the wall
And vanished within the shelves.
My heart was thumping real hard and I started to giggle
Which soon turned to laughter.
Never in my life I've seen my dad jumped so far back.
His expression was funny and I kept on replaying in my mind.
Laughing over and over again.
My dad asked me what was so funny
But I was in fits to tell him.

I have to go.
I'm dying.
Kim strikes again!
I hate myself for making silly mistakes.

WHAT THE HELL!

#407 Jokes

Having a chat with my cousin about standing eggs.
We're both such jokers (:

Jokes.

#406 Standing Egg

So, I've been seeing eggs standing through
Facebook
And I thought I could try it or something.
And there you go,
A standing egg within 19minutes (:

HAHA (:

Standing egg (:

#405 Update

Eating alone during dinner time right now.
Although I'm sick of the chicken burger in McD's
But the fries never gets old.

I've never realised how lonely it is eating dinner alone.
It feels really pathetic though.
But I'm minding the store and I have no choice
Now do I?

YUCK!

Just took a huge last bite of my burger
And the mayo is sickening me to the core.
Damn.
I'm so not going to eat McD when I start college.
Never ever.

So, the other day (2/2/12),
I went in for interview at The Curve's TGIF.
I kind of pass considering they told me
The boss will call me and all.
But so far, no news.
And yesterday (3/2/12)
I was sick like Hell.
My nose was blocked and
I kept on having runny nose.
To top it off,
I'm having cough and it sucks.
Oh wells,
Life is not always cookies and candies.

I'm going off now considering
It's almost closing time.
Going home to go online, YAY!
And tomorrow I might be able to go
Shopping for my working clothes.
Oh, I hope TGIF calls me!!!

Life is not always cookies and candies

#404 Actions

The words that comes out from your mouth doesn't match the actions you've done.

Actions, my friend, speaks louder than words.

#403 "I'm Sorry,"

She wrapped her arms around her legs
As she pulled her legs tighter to herself.
Tears streamed down her face,
Leaving many trails of water all over her cheeks.
Tears soon shattered upon the cold, hard floor
As it came in contact.
Shattered into many pieces of tiny diamonds.

Those words were just words.
But it was coated with venom
And it stung her heart so bad
She felt as though she was going to die.
She squeezed her eyes shut to tight,
She began to see spots dancing in her closed eye lids.
She inhale sharply through her nose
As she straightened her back
And exhale softly through her mouth.
She then opened her eyes
And caught the very last teardrop
From her chin with her fingertip.
She studied the tear for quite a long time
And finally made up her mind.

She has a pride, yes,
But she will not fall in this battle.
She'll make him feel guilty.
Oh yes, she will.
She'll forgive him
Though forgiving is not part of her style
But what the heck?
If it is to make him feel guilty,
Bring it on!

She slowly shuffled onto
Her unsteady feet and walked
Unsteadily to the door.
When she opened the door,
She saw him.

"I'm sorry," she muttered softly.
And it took great strength out of her.

Pride.