#25 Opposites

In life,
There is good and bad.
There is black and white.
There is happiness and depressed.
There is love and hate.
There is laughter and tears.

The world needs a little bit of something.
Good or bad,
It needs both
To be balanced.
Kinda reminds me of Ying and Yang.

Some people tend to keep things to themselves.
They learnt not to open their hearts
And talk about their feelings with others.
Maybe it's because they're afraid they might get hurt.
Afraid their friends will betray,
Back stabbed,
Or worst,
Spread it.

Their hearts are filled with nothing but
Sadness and hatred.
In order to be sane
And not go crazy,
Every night,
They'll crawl up to their beds,
Hugged their pillows,
Off their lights
And cry silently to themselves.

Pouring every hatred,
Every sadness that filled their heart.
Into their pillow.
Some writes in their diaries.
Trying to record their sadness.

You used to be so closed to me
And suddenly,
You've changed.
Everything that we had,
All vanished with a snap.

You ignored your surroundings.
Go to those people whom are 'in',
And ignored people whom are 'out'.

I feel bad,
Just hanging around you,
Knowing I'm one of the 'out' people.
Many people might misunderstand,
Thinking that I'm following you
Just because I want to be 'in'.

Lets just say this,
I don't want to be 'in' or 'out'.
I just don't want to feel lonely.
I've been lonely my whole life long.
And I hated it
Even though I should get used to it.

I'm a troubled kid.
I can't help it
If I get angry easily.

By the way,
Thank you, Jesslyn
For the advice.
The thins is,
I'm not sure if I could carry it out.

I'm a troubled kid