#315 Revenge

Honestly, these past few days were kinda like
Bittersweet ice-cream for me.
Yesterday shall be the last thing I've ever done to help someone.
People whom are not grateful to the fact that I actually
Spent some time listening to how their lives are,
Offering advice to them, trying to cheer them up.
Not even a simple thanks I get from people I've helped,
People I've listened.

Is it that hard?

And when things got better,
They could just push me out of their minds,
Thinking that when they need help,
They would always come looking for me.
Well,
NO MORE!
I now only will help those who needs to be helped.
I will not campur tangan into your
Petty little worries and fights.
Why should I be so emotional over your problems?
You made it, you deal it..

Well, I kinda develop a tiny feeling towards someone.
It was funny and stupid at the same time.
Our conversation maybe short but it was funny
Yet awkward at the same time.
Funny how my heart doesn't pound as fast as it should be,
Does not  like what novels used to describe,
My heart pounded so fast, it felt as though my heart would
Break my ribcage and he will run away with my heart.

It felt normal but adrenaline pumped through my body.
I noticed his smile is rather cute and he looked like
An innocent young boy.
Yet he is quite a gentleman,
A tall one to be exact.
No, I'm not in love,
At least that is what i think I am right now.
Not. In. Love.

Oh,
I loved the fact that he noticed I changed my hairstyle
And on the first day he saw me,
I caught him staring at me.
I'm lucky that I'm not the kind that blushes easily,
It would be embarrassing.

Honestly,
I was in cloud nine when people kept on
Telling me that my hairstyle looks nice.
Compliments like that don't usually come this way.
My friend even said,
You know, you looked prettier today.
My face was the
Hey, you're kidding right?
But my mind was...
In heaven. (:
That was how happy I was.
There was once that when he looked at me,
He said fringe and I honestly could not contain
The happiness blooming inside of me (:
Seemed pretty stupid right?
But I can't help it.

We talked today after school,
Just before I made up my mind to walk to
Shy Wen's house to borrow her phone to call my mom.
He was being insecure, I guess.
He asked me if anyone told me rumors about him
And I honestly don't remember.
He then said,
You know, when there is a new student, 
They often listen to rumors.
And I told him,
I'm not like that.
Because I know how stupid a rumor is.
And he said,
You know, you're kinda cool.
I mean like on the first day of school and yet you
Have alot of friends.
To tell you the truth,
I was bubbling with happiness :3

Really.

I feel like a kid that has been let loose in a candy shop (: