#397 Confidence

Work started and I feel abit lazy to go.
I mean,
I miss waking up early in the morning and to find no one at home.
Camwhoring until the sun is high up in the sky.
Minding my own business.

Ahh, the sweet sweet life.

I'm having this sudden urge to do maths and add maths.
It's crazy.
After all, I'm not really an add maths person
And I suck in add maths.

Was having a reunion dinner with my cousin today.
It was... a little bit depressing.
We are all comparing ourselves.
Who is fat and all.
And guess who won first prize?
Correct.
Me.
I'm fat.

Whatever now.
I am who I wish to be (:
No one will drag me down. :D

But honestly,
I wish I could be someone that is:
Beautiful.
Sexy.
Confident.

But I have to face reality.
And reality hurts alot.
For the person that is looking back at me
Through a mirror
Is someone so not confident.
Someone that tends to slug her shoulder,
Trying to hide herself away from the world.
And worst off,
That someone is me.
And I look so... ugly.

Watched the lastest episode of Naruto the other night.
He sat infront of  a waterfall that
Reflects the inner him.
The inner him was bitter and filled with anger.
His hatred towards the villagers
And how they treated him in the past for
Being different and having great power in him.
The Dark Naruto then stepped out of the waterfall
And explained to Naruto,
Telling him that he is Naruto's inner feelings.
Naruto couldn't accept him
He then fought with his dark side.
Using every moves he know.
Yet the dark him is a total mirror of him
Therefor, their strengths are equal.
Naruto then opened his eyes
And his dark side was gone.
But he knew deep down he was bitter with everyone.

Naruto then found a way to conquer his bitterness.
He learnt to trust himself before having others
To place their trust in him.
He became more confident and he explained to his dark side.
His dark side wouldn't accept it and ran to punch Naruto
But Naruto intercepted him by giving his dark side a hug.
And he told his dark side that he is willing be more
Confident in himself.
And to forgive the villagers in his past
And to look forward to the future.
His dark side then dispersed as he trully forgave himself.
Will post up the video on my next post (:
It gave me confidence in myself.

Naruto is an awesome anime
For it reflects my life and it teaches me at the same time.

That's it for now.
I have work tomorrow
And I'm planning to watch some animes
Before sleeping.
Goodnight (:

Naruto is an awesome anime.