#482 FXCK

Wow, I've only blogged like trice during September.

It's so hard to actually sit down and blog.

I feel like I've been neglecting my blog.

NOOO!
You know?

I think I shall blog every once a week (:

Even if it's full of bullshit, Ima just write it down.

Hmm.

Let's see.

I wanna talk about X.

Yes, X.

X is constantly pissing me off.

Her attitude and her behavior makes me want to scream.

X and I are in the same group

And we're supposed to work together on a project

But X is doing everything and I want to contribute

'Cause I feel like a parasite for not doing anything.

So, yesterday ( 031012)

X went to find teacher.

Pearly and I tagged along.

And after asking teacher,

X started to flipped through her textbook

And I feel so useless and stupid to just stand there.

Then Pearly asked X if she wants to follow to buy

Fried rice and Starbucks.

Then X said, 

You solo is it? 

Then I looked at Pearly and Pearly looked at me

And Pearly asked me.

So, 

I asked Pow if she needs me to do anything.

She said,

No. It's okay. I can do it myself.

I felt awkward and quickly walked away.

Arriving at Starbucks,

We ordered and pay and X texted me,

Saying that she wants to go home.

Then she called

And Pearly picked up the call

'Cause I was putting cash in my wallet.

Pearly told X that we're almost done

And we left as soon as we got our drinks.

Halfway back to college,

X horned her car and she said let's go already.

But the thing is,

I left my bag at level 6 and I wanted go get it.

X showed face.

I was like what the-?

A few minutes later,

I called X, telling her that she should go home first

And I'll take the bus home.

I was kinda expecting X to say it's ok

But X just say okay and that's it.

I felt frustrated and pissed off and so on.

And a few days ago,

Pearly, X and I were in the lift together

And Pearly asked me if I'm staying back.

I said it's not up to me to decide and we both look at X.

X then look at the ceiling,

Pretending that we're not looking at her.

And then later on,

I walked out of the lift first and Pearly told me that

X said

Got car and license already but don't want to drive.

What the bloody fuck!?

It's not that I don't want to drive,

It's that my parents doesn't want me to drive!

Geez! 

So what if X is able to drive right after she got her license?

Some parents prefer to take precautions.

Gosh.

Right now,

I feel rather worried that I might blow up

On X someday.

Ugh.

Sometimes,

I just want to slap some goddamn sense into her.

FARK!

What the bloody fuck!?