#339 Social

By know I should have known what a hypocrite I am.

I called other people naive for not knowing the real world

Yet here I am,

Being the naive one.

Deep down I knew I'm the one.

This few weeks just passed 

And it dawned to me that I'm someone

Whom is hard to talk too

And there isn't any topic to talk to me.

Really.

It's like after a word or two,

Then everything will go awkward

And I'm left standing there,

Like a freaking stupid girl.

A retardo,

Just staring and observing others talk.

Listen to other people's conversation and

Wondering when will I be able to talk like others too.

Don't get me wrong,

I love to talk.

Talking always makes me happy.

Complaints or dissing are fine to me

As long as I get to freaking talk to other people.

I'm living in my own world right now.

Where I study at night until 2-3am

While watching people upload the games they play on youtube.

Not really liking facebook as much as I did last time

'Cause I know that I have no one to talk too

And it depressed me so.

So, why do I want to waste my energy on that

When I can listen to music and watch other people 

Play games and laughing at the stupid comments they make

While playing.

No.

I'm not depressed or such.

I'm not sulking in my own room.

I'm not staring at my handphone,

Wondering whom should I talk too.

Nope.

I'm alright.

I'm not lying to myself.

I really am feeling alright.

Just a tinge of sadness that dwells within my soul.

I'm alright, see?