#414 Hope and Despair

My sister took this while I was trying
To climb up the gap.
Was just fooling around,
No biggie.
Cause both my sister and I used to climb
That part when we were kids.
It was fun while it lasted (:

The weather was behaving rather odd just now.
But it's one of my favorite kind of weather.
All lightning and wind but no rain.
It was scary at the same time beautiful
I was able to see streaks and streaks of lightning
Flashing across the dark sky;
Illuminating each path it took.
Beautiful.

The other favorite kind of weather is that
It is extremely windy
And dark clouds starts to roll in.
No lightning nor thunder nor rain.
Just a strong gust of wind.

I've forgotten how is it like to interact with others.
I mean, sure I talk to my friends in Facebook
But I'm pretty sure I'll be more...
Shy and reserved when it comes to face-to-face.
It takes time to break down the ice, I guess.

I know I said I like to keep the past as...
The past.
But I can't help but to remember
What is it like to be texting and laughing at texts
Now a days.
All I do now is smile at my computer and get mad
And pissed off at my family members because of
My attitude and shit.

I want to get out and be free.
I want to have a better social life.
I want to be the one that everyone likes to talk too
And not push me away.
I know my patience isn't as good as my sister's
But I have my faults and flaws too.

Man, I'm being a whiner here.
Here's the sprinkles on the ice cream though,
I'm working tomorrow! (yay!)
On the downside is that I don't get to
Listen to my music and watch One Piece
For the whole day until 6pm.
But oh wells,
I'm trying to achieve my goals here.

I've been thinking through
But I know that I can't achieve one of my biggest goal.
To study astrology.
I want to study the stars and other galaxies
But because of my study background,
I'm not qualified to be an astrologist.
But no matter,
Maybe one day I'll be able to meet
Someone that studies astrology and maybe
Teach me some stuff about it (:

Being optimistic here.
Haha.
I've made up my mind to buy a camera again.
But this one is the kind that is able to
Take beautiful pictures of the beautiful night sky
And most of all,
Be able to take many many wonderful pictures
Of the hidden stars in the night sky.

My next dream is to be able to take
Pictures of lightnings.
Like ridding an open airplane in the storm clouds
And taking pictures.
It's dangerous but what is life without risks? (:

Despair is the inaction that keeps us down,
Hope is the will to create a better tomorrow."
-Wenqing Yan

What is life without risks?