#372 Thoughts

I've read back my posts and it dawn to me what a useless being I was no wait, am. I can't adapt to things and all. I tend to run away, like alot. And yet I did not stand up and face the thing like a brave girl.

I'm, after all, a coward and not someone thought I was brave; fearless even.

I'm vulnerable and I get scared easily and all.

I'm not who I thought I was.

Reality can sometimes suck alot.

I had a dream last night.
You were hurt by my blog post.
You complained to my cousin and you even cried on the phone.
You were gripping tightly on the phone and you hugged your free hand around you; to protect yourself.

I heartlessly look down at you when I pushed you off your feet. I sneered at you, kicked you and walked away like a heartless jerk.

They say dreams are from our subconscious mind. If we thought too much about it, we will dream about it.

Seemed like I've subconsciously gave it alot of thought in it. I'm such a jerk. (:

I'm off for badminton now, using my iPhone to blog for now.

Heartless bitch signing off now.