#43 Time To Rise And Go Back Straight To Hell

I can't believe the holidays are going to be over!
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I totally regretted not waking up early very morning
Through out the whole month!
If not,
I could have almost finish Naruto
And start Naruto Shippuden!
So not fair.
I am now at episode 138.
Well,
I haven watch it yet,
Still loading.
Heh.
Only 82 more to go!

School's tomorrow.
Means no more using the com for the whole week.
Only once a week!
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I haven even buy my exercise books!
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Stupid school!

My cousin once told me
That loneliness is very suffering.
You have no idea, girl.
I have been suffering for such a long time.
Watching Naruto makes me realized,
How painful I feel.

I don't know what to do.
There is so many things for me to write
But I have no idea where to start!
Shall I be the one whom sits alone in a dark corner?
Or the one who wants to be popular?

I'm going for the one whom sits alone.
Do you know that being alone all the time,
Can drive you crazy?
Can make you feel insane?

There is so many times that I feel like
Taking a gun out
And point at you and shoot you dead!
I would really like to see your blood,
Splatter all over the wall,
On the floor,
On to my face!

The anger in my heart,
Has turned a red pumping heart
Into a dark, cold stone.
Bitterness in me
Has run though my veins,
Causing me to think dark thoughts all the time.

When I look at you,
Anger boils up in me.
There are so many ways to calm down,
And I chose to think up do many ways
I could just make you suffer
As though you feel like you're in hell.

I don't think I can type anymore.
Any longer,
I could spoil the keyboard by smashing it with my fist.
Sorrow and Grief
Are now part of me...

Sit alone in a dark corner,
Watching you with hatred burning in my eyes