#249 Capture You

Just came back from One Utama with Lai Kuan :)
Gosh, I miss talking to her.
Like seriously.

We walked around;
Looking for clothes, shoes, handbag and album.
Yes,
I want to buy The Fray album :(
It's so expensive!

Rather tired today.
Not sure why though.

Chinese New Year
Doesn't feel like
Chinese New Year at all.
It's so retarded.

I promised Jenssen that
I'll write his dream out.
I just...
Don't
Feel
Like
Writing
It
Now.

Doesn't feel like Chinese New Year at all

#248 The Voice

She stared out to the open sea; her thoughts running wildly in her mind like wild horses. She sighed a sigh that was filled with depression. 

To jump or not to jump? She questioned herself. A question she asked herself everyday without failed.

Jump.

A small voice in her head whispered. She wants to obey the voice yet her legs won't obey her.

Jump,

The voice whispered louder this time.

Tears trickled down her cheeks. I want to, I want to, I just can't! A sob was released from her mouth and the wind carried her voice with him, holding it tightly to himself; afraid to lose her all together.

He had hoped she won't jump, not in this life or the next. Stay strong, the wind tried to whisper to her, but he failed for the voice inside her is way louder and closer to her.

Don't! The wind shouted as she stuck out her right foot.
JUMP! The voice screamed.
Remember the past, don't forget it. Remember why you're standing here, remember why do you stand at the end of this cliff, remember you want to run away from the past; from everything. This is the only way, the only best solution you have!


No, it's not. The wind whispered, softly and gently in her ear which traveled to her mind. His voice is so gentle that it was able to calm her down; allowing her to think calmly.

The voice knew he is losing and he hates to lose, not to a stupid invisible being like the wind. He started to bring up the past, making her remember all the horrible things that happened to her; her father sexually abused her; her mother slapping her every time she is sober; her brother rapped her every time he feels like it. What else can she do aside from leaving this cruel world?

Catch her! Roared the wind to the ocean as she begun to jump.
CATCH HER!


























































But,








































































She hit the jagged rocks instead. The wind started to wept; bringing the rain with him to moan for the beautiful girl.

Somewhere, the voice fled to find another host. A host to spread it's negativeness, for that's how he is made to do; that's what he was meant to do.

He is everywhere.

If the voice passes by your head, don't let the him overcome you. Allow the wind to save you.

♥

I wrote this on Prema's Iphone during tuition just now.
She e-mailed it to me :D
Heck yeah!
Anyways,
My writing style is different here
Because I don't want to have like
Alot of space o.o
I'm not sure which picture suits the title;
Help me?

Can you hear me calling out towards you?

I guess not.

#247 Cosplay At Cineleisure

Went to Cineleisure today.
It was extremely fun.
Reason?
COSPLAY!
Aslene, Hsiao Feng and her brother,
May (Aslene's mom) and Keertana
Were all there.
Sadly,
Hsiao Feng and her brother had to go back
Earlier. :/
And Keertana came much much later.
Overall,
It was fun.

I saw a Sasuke cosplayer
And I even hugged her.
Yes.
Her.
The cosplayer is a SHE;
Not a HE.
Aww :/
Beggars can't be choosers I suppose.
I await for Comic Fiesta
Where all the Sasukes gather there
So I could squeeze them to death :3

I finally get to hug Sasuke 

Emo gang

LORDDD!

Everything was awesome shit

#246 Love Fingers

If it's love you want;

It's love I can give.

But what is love

When there's no trust in between?

The reason why my lips are pout,

It's because I want people to know

That I'm blowing my 

"Love Fingers" 

At YOU.

Anyways,

I'm going to Ikano tomorrow.

There is like gonna be a freaking 

Cosplay there!

-maniac screams-

I can't wait to go.

Manda gave me a punch line to hug

A Sasuke Cosplayer

"Hey Sasuke! Hey Sasuke!

I really really really like you;

So, can I have a picture of me hugging you?"

Haha,

Manda I love your idea.

It may sound easy but boy,

I have a feeling I'm going to have 

Bats in my stomach and
I'm gonna stun there. o.o

Um,

I can't wait!

Tomorrow is the day 

I'm going to hug random people :D

I told Manda that 

I shall hug Sebby and Grell on her behalf :3

Sasuke!

I really really like you.

So, can I have a picture of me hugging you?

#245 It All Falls Perfectly Well

And so
I cycled in the rain today.
It was pouring hard but not raining cats and dogs. :)
I asked him if he's free to come out and
Cycle in the rain with me but turns out he have tuition.
It feels like fate wants me to avoid him as much as possible.
Maybe I should just throw in the damn towel and
Just listen to Fate.

I look like I'm dancing

DANCE GIRL DANCE!  

My best badminton buddy. Partners for life :)

I've learn to love badminton and the friends I have there.

Unlike Fake.

She's just plain weird :)

Just listen to Fate

#244 Unexpected Counter

It looks like it's going to rain any minute.
Should I turn back?
Or maybe I should just cycle in the rain;
Allow the raindrops to wash away the sadness in me.
Wash away my sorrow I kept within me.
I stopped my bike and looked up at the sky,
Watching the dark clouds form any minute.


I sneezed.
Once.
Twice.
Three times.
It's going to be a storm.
I hitched up my bike and continued my way home.
I passed by his house.
How I hoped to ring his doorbell and say hi.


Out of the blue,
Rain started to storm down on me.
SHIT!
My phone!
My MP4!
I cycled to the nearest place
To shelter from the rain - playground.
Thank God for small roofs.
I waited for the rain to stop.
There's no thunder nor lightning.
Maybe cycling in the rain is not a bad idea.
But my phone and mp4 will get wet.
I debated.
Should I call him and ask for plastic bags?
I pounded my head.
That's my first option.
But what is my second?
What if he isn't at home at all?
What should I do next?
Call my mom?
No.
I sighed,
Took out my phone and search for his name.
I took a deep breath.
Here goes.
I clicked the call button.
It rang.
Once.
Twice.
"Hello?"
"Hey!"
"Hey, what's up?"
My knees turned jelly just from listening to his voice.
"Um. Are you free?"
"Yeah."
"Um. Are you at home now?"
"Yeah, why?"
I chuckled,
"Can you loan me a couple of plastic bags?"
"What for? Where are you?"
I shivered.
The wind started to pick up.
"I'm at the playground. Just outside your house."
"What the hell are you doing there?"
"Um. Hanging around?"
"Come on over, will get the plastic bags ready."
"Thanks."
"No probs."


I let out my breath.
My heart pounded oh so hard.
I chucked my phone in my pocket,
Hoping it won't get wet.
I jumped,
Climbed on my bike,
And cycled to his house.


His gate was open.
I cycled in and stopped under the roof.
I got down from my bike,
Took out my specs and pushed my wet hair
Out of my eyes as I closed my eyes.
"Kim?"
I opened my eyes and I saw him in front of me.
Even though I couldn't see clearly without my specs,
I could see him standing there,
Waiting for me to say something.
"Hey, sorry to interrupt to whatever you're doing."
"No, it's okay. I got the plastic bags!"
He said as he held up two plastic bags.
I took out my nearly soaked phone and mp4
And put it on a table nearby.
"Thanks," I said as I took the plastic bags from him.
I chucked my phone into a plastic bag and my mp4 another.
Suddenly,
I felt warmer.


Apparently,
He tried to wrapped me up with a towel.
I cleared my throat,
I didn't know what to say
Or how to react.
"Want to come in and have a drink?"
He was just a foot away from me.
I could feel his breath upon my wet hair
And I could see his chest going up and down from breathing.
I looked up at him,
His features became clearer due to the fact
He was oh so close to me.
I blushed,
"Maybe not. My mom must be worried."
"Give her a call?"
I backed up as he took a step front.
"But I have to get home as soon as possible,"
"No, not really."
Backed up.
"My phone is running low on credit, I can't really call her."
"You can use my house phone,"
My back is against the wall.
"But I'm wet."
"You can dry off here while I get you a cup of hot drink."
Thunder boomed.
Lightning strike.


I was afraid and took a step front without thinking with my eyes shut.
I ended up against his chest;
His body gave out a heat I need for my cold numb one.
I shivered, clutching hold of the towel.
I felt his hands wrapped around me,
Providing me more heat.
"You're cold, so cold."
I tried to nod.
I felt his lips upon my hair.
Finally,
I came to my senses.
I tried to push myself away from him
Somehow,
I couldn't.
Maybe it's because he's holding me tight.
I don't know.
I looked up at him
And saw him looking down upon me.
Like an angel that descended from Heaven.
"I...I'm sorry for getting you wet,"
"It's alright," He whispered softly.
He lowered his head,
Coming in for a kiss.
I closed my eyes.


RIIING!
My eyes snapped open and I saw him looking at my phone.
I reached for my specs and took my phone.
"It's my mom,"
He nodded.
"Yeah?"
"Where are you? It's raining and there's thunder and lightning,"
He hugged me tighter,
"I'm at my friend's house, seeking warmth."
"You want me to come get you?"
I looked at him and smiled,
"It's okay, we have a lot to catch up."
I offed the phone,
Tip toed and kissed him lightly on the lips.
"Thanks for everything,
But I think the rain is going to stop and I have to get home."
"Where do you stay?"
"If I tell you, that will be cheating."
"Cheating?"
"You promised to find my house,"
I got up on my bike and turned my bike around.
He stood in front of me.
"Aww come one,"
I smiled.
He leaned in to peck me on the cheek.
"Bye,"
I whispered and woke up,
Feeling warm and felt happiness flood all over me.


Like an angel that descend from Heaven

#243 Water Works

I didn't go to school today.
Had a real bad headache yesterday and this morning.
Fever was on and off.
God.
It was suffering.
But I ish better now.

Anyways,
The first week of school was suffering.
Water works on the first day of school.
I didn't want to be alone again.
Not anymore.
It hurts oh so bad.

Second week;
Water works on Tuesday.
Yeah,
Was frustrated with my stupid Add Math teacher
Who didn't gave a shit about me.
I mean,
I wanted to ask her if the method I did was correct or what.
She just freaking roll her eyes and left me standing there
Like a fool.

Whatever.
I went cycling on Sunday :)
It was awesome
Due to the fact that it wasn't hot and there isn't
Any sun.

Sat at the basketball court to watch the sunset and
Await for the stars to shine.
Saw bats close up :)
I feel like squeezing their bodies!

Like a fool

#242 His Story

Oh man, I miss my long hair.

Currently using my mom's computer to blog. 

My com kinda died on me.

Anyways,

I stumbled upon an old vid called

Brave Solders.

Some of you might know,

Then again.

It's not like alot of people actually visits my blog.

Well.

I had to go for two tuitions yesterday

And it was tiring.

Seriously.

First was accounts and next was History.

Accounts was alright

But I was facing stress from history.

Mainly because there are like

Two smarty pants there and I'm like

The fucking dumb one there.

They know how to answer but I don't.

I'm such a dumb ass.

Gosh.

Such low self esteem much?

Current;y having the urge to

Go out and cycle now.

Maybe later.

I hope it doesn't rain.

Yet another kind of successful

Encounter a few nights ago.

Counselor Kim strikes again!

Um. 

I received this from someone :)

And it was touching. LOL.

The fucking dumb one.

#241 Down The Drain

One week of school flushed down the toilet!
Gosh!
I'm so happy that I could actually jump up and down now.

Same class again.
Was depressed on the first day though.
It seems like everyone wants to avoid me as soon as possible.
Yeah.
It was seriously depressing.
On top of that,
It was freaking noisy.
Oh,
How I felt like asking them to shut up when teacher's
Teaching.

No offence but yeah.

Um.
I don't feel like talking at the moment.
I just remembered that last night,
I dream that he texted me.
My heart was soaring way up high
But when I woke up.
Oh hell.
I checked my phone and
There wasn't any text message.
Stupid dream.


No offence

#240 Plans Of The Past

When there's Kim; There will be tissue

Well,
It's been days since I've actually blogged.
I'm just too lazybusy.

Anyways,
On the 25th (Christmas Day),
My dad drove us up to Penang
To spent our Christmas there.

The first day there was quite a waste.
We spent the whole afternoon sleeping
At my aunt's house.
When my uncle came back from work.
(Yeah.
He had to go to work on a
Christmas Day!)
Anyways,
Had Roti Kaya for dinner. o.o
Nothing much though.

On the second day though,
It was much much better.
I was able to see my adorable nephew and niece!
SPAZZZ!
I miss them!

Pictures taken on the trip:

Shake that booty!

Kenneth boy :)

Isn't she adorable?

Yeah, we're so bored until we had to grade each other's drawing.

See what I mean?

Die kid, die!

Smile. It's awesome.

Okay.

On the 30th,

Went to Tania's party.

It was seriously awkward at first.

I mean,

I didn't know anyone there.

I hide in the toilet for 30minutes plus.

Yeah.

It was so awesome staying in a cubicle

Doing nothing but text, smell the lemon grass,

Hearing people fart while peeing

And kids singing about belly button. 

Went out when Tanisha told me she

Have arrived.

Finally!

Someone I actually know and talk to.

Met a couple of people

Including Emily and Jessen.

Emily was from Beaconhouse

And Jessen is still is.

Um.

Food there was freaking expensive!

RM16 just for a freaking milkshake!

Um.

It was alright I guess. :)

I kinda had fun :)

Ew. I have big arms :/

Birthday girl :) Her eyes are awesome for tahaning the flashes o.o

It was so awesome staying in a cubicle

Doing nothing but text, smell the lemon grass,

Hearing people fart while peeing

And kids singing about belly button.