#488 Update

I had alot to talk about
But as soon as I logged into my blog,
I realized whatever I wanted to say seems to disappear.
I'm just being weird here.

Anyways,
I went for a marathon this morning from
Space u8 and I walked all the way home.
Not sure how far that as but yeah.

I kinda jogged too, I guess
But yeah.

Having a sore body right now.
I'm just trying to collect my thoughts right now,
Not really in the mood to blog.

So yeah.

Bye.

Bye.

#487 Oh My Blob

Oh my blob.

221212 (Saturday)
Went to Comic Fiesta 2012 with Amanda.
We queued up for 2 whole hours before we're able to get
In the hall.
It was super packed like sardines in a can.
All I can say is that it was a fun day for me
Even though I wasn't feeling that well.

I've just read a couple of blogs and it made me laughed.
Really?
Over such a small thing and everything turned sour for you.
Wow.
I've never encounter someone that has such strong emotions,
Aside from mine.

I do not want to say much.
But I can't helping laughing over it.

I'm so lumped up (:
Oh!
I've made a new video regarding Adventure Time.

Enjoy (:

Oh my blob.

#486 Flying FIsh

Just now,
I was dipping my feet in my house's pond
And it hit me.
I've realized that in some weird and sick way,
Fishes are flying.

Not the kind of flying you do up in the sky, no.
The more of floating kind.
You see,
Fishes are in a way, fly - floating in their way.
They do not touch the ground (sea bed).
It's funny, really.

If I have the ability to shape-shift into any animal,
I would become an eagle.
I would soar in the sky with no worries
For I am powerful and strong, too.
I will not worry any other bigger flying creatures
To hunt me down as I am the hunter, not the hunted.

I'm going out of topic here.
Back to the fishy case.
So yeah,
Don't you think it's true?
That fishes are 'flying'?
Hmm...

Fishes are flying!

#485 Dead

Man, my blog seems so dead.
I apologize for not updating it much.
It's just that I'm a super lazy girl
And a super hectic month has passed and all.
Rushing with my assignment and such.

Ok, moving on.

It's my sem break and I feel so bored.
Honestly la,
I'm not sure about alot of things.
Grrr.

Anyways,
It's been raining almost everyday.
Got myself a few shots of the lightning

Well,

That's about it.

I'm a boring person in this boring world.

Signing off,

Dead Blog

#484 Guilt

So, we went to Levain the other day (Friday 051012)
And honestly,
The whole thing was messed up.
But it was all fun though,
Won't deny that.

Currently have alot of guilt
Piling up on my shoulders.
I'll think it over once again and yeah.
Pretty short update but ah,
I don't have any mood to blog actually.
Maybe I'll post the happenings in the next post.
Till then.

I'm guilty.

#483 By Far The Worst

I feel like I am the bad guy.

I let my emotions run and later on,

I'll regret being regret on being a bad guy.

Shit.

I have no idea what should I do right now.

I'm confused.

I'm by far the worst human being ever lived in this world.

Shit.

#482 FXCK

Wow, I've only blogged like trice during September.

It's so hard to actually sit down and blog.

I feel like I've been neglecting my blog.

NOOO!
You know?

I think I shall blog every once a week (:

Even if it's full of bullshit, Ima just write it down.

Hmm.

Let's see.

I wanna talk about X.

Yes, X.

X is constantly pissing me off.

Her attitude and her behavior makes me want to scream.

X and I are in the same group

And we're supposed to work together on a project

But X is doing everything and I want to contribute

'Cause I feel like a parasite for not doing anything.

So, yesterday ( 031012)

X went to find teacher.

Pearly and I tagged along.

And after asking teacher,

X started to flipped through her textbook

And I feel so useless and stupid to just stand there.

Then Pearly asked X if she wants to follow to buy

Fried rice and Starbucks.

Then X said, 

You solo is it? 

Then I looked at Pearly and Pearly looked at me

And Pearly asked me.

So, 

I asked Pow if she needs me to do anything.

She said,

No. It's okay. I can do it myself.

I felt awkward and quickly walked away.

Arriving at Starbucks,

We ordered and pay and X texted me,

Saying that she wants to go home.

Then she called

And Pearly picked up the call

'Cause I was putting cash in my wallet.

Pearly told X that we're almost done

And we left as soon as we got our drinks.

Halfway back to college,

X horned her car and she said let's go already.

But the thing is,

I left my bag at level 6 and I wanted go get it.

X showed face.

I was like what the-?

A few minutes later,

I called X, telling her that she should go home first

And I'll take the bus home.

I was kinda expecting X to say it's ok

But X just say okay and that's it.

I felt frustrated and pissed off and so on.

And a few days ago,

Pearly, X and I were in the lift together

And Pearly asked me if I'm staying back.

I said it's not up to me to decide and we both look at X.

X then look at the ceiling,

Pretending that we're not looking at her.

And then later on,

I walked out of the lift first and Pearly told me that

X said

Got car and license already but don't want to drive.

What the bloody fuck!?

It's not that I don't want to drive,

It's that my parents doesn't want me to drive!

Geez! 

So what if X is able to drive right after she got her license?

Some parents prefer to take precautions.

Gosh.

Right now,

I feel rather worried that I might blow up

On X someday.

Ugh.

Sometimes,

I just want to slap some goddamn sense into her.

FARK!

What the bloody fuck!?

#481 Snapped

I'm just going straight to the point.
I cried in college today.

Maybe I'll just start at the beginning.

Thursday (200912)
I had a fight with my parents regarding dinner. It was silly actually but I didn't want to go because I haven finish my project for the next day. Honestly la, I cried because I felt so much is weighing heavily on my shoulders and I couldn't wait until everything was over. I exchanged harsh and painful words with my mother, hurting her more than intended.

Friday (210912)
I apologized to both my parents eventhough my ego was sky high. I've talked to my lecturer about the situation at home and finally, I gave in and apologized. I still haven talked to my sister and I didn't like it. Not one bit. After coming home from college, I had to rush to get ready to go to the airport to send my sister off to UK. But halfway there, my mom realised my sister forgotten to bring her documents and we had to jam all the way home and back. Didn't make it. Still did not talk.'

Saturday (220912)
I went for work at 10am until 7pm. My sister has flown to UK and I went to party at my friend's house, Hooi. It was awesome as I consumed alot of alcohol and went all crazy and stuff. Honestly, I've never had so much fun in my whole life with my friends and I realised there and then; maybe it's fated that I have awful friends last time so now I could cheish the ones I have now. Loo drove me home with his awesome Volkswagon Polo (so excited) and he lectured me about road safety.

Sunday (230912)
I couldn't remember anything when I woke up but it all came to me after showering. Got ready to go for driving practice and got scolded by the uncle over a small thing. Came home, took a shower and got ready to work from 12pm to 10pm. Ita and I had lots of fun talking to each other and so on.

Monday (240911)
I woke up early that day due to driving test. I was so nervous and I didn't get enough rest the night before. But I calmed down and made friends with a girl and we chatted about alot of silly stuff. We were there since 9.30 until 5pm. It was tiring and nerve-wrecking. But after the whole thing, I felt so light and happy. I went home with the happy news and slept. I woke up ay 7.30pm to have dinner, went to the market to change my shirt size and came home to continue with my poster. Sadly, the boss rejected my idea saying that 'there is not enough omph in it'. I felt pressured and stressed as I have done this project for quite a while. I've been wasting my time searching for the perfect background and photoshopped the whole thing in yet it was rejected. I've been redoing this for so many times that I felt I've lost hope.

Tuesday (250312/today)
I went to college, feeling happy and light eventhough I did not study for my quiz. It turned out there was homework on Monday and I did not know about due to my whole day at the driving test. My lecturer scolded me and she said this particular sentence that really hurt me,

"If I were your mother, I would nag and scold you everyday too,"

The reason why I felt hurt is because I've trusted her and told her my situation at home yet she used it to back fire me. I couldn't contain my emotions and silently sobbed during the whole quiz. Right after the quiz ended, I got up and rushed towards the bathroom where I started to cry and cry. I was relief that the bathroom was rather noisy so people couldn't really hear my sobs. And negative thoughts started to flood in my mind like, yes, I'm not as good as Jie Jie, my academy sucks, I'm worthless and so on. The more I thought about it, the sadder I became. Thoughts such as suicide started to flood in and I imagined so many death scenes of me. After I've calmed down which was about an hour later, I realised that dying isn't going to help me. I'm a strong girl. I am tough. I then walked out of the toilet after washing my face and went into class. I listened to the lecturer and quickly bolted to the toilet once again after the class. I couldn't handle the people looking at me when I went in the room. A couple of girls asked me if I'm alright when I was in the bathroom. There was one that asked me when I was waiting for the stall. She saw my face and she said,

"Excuse me, but are you alright?"

I nodded and forced a smile and rushed in the stall once it was opened. Once again, emotions flooded out and I felt so much more better. Then I went to level 6 to meet Pow and we all, I meant all of us including Pearly, Pow and Melissa pretended it didn't happen. My friends (those that doesn't know the situation) asked me what's wrong? I told them,

"Nah, my contacts are dry and I have flu,"

Apparently that little lie worked and Pearly and Pow didn't mention anything when I said that. We joked about Hooi's party and so on and carry on as if nothing happened. But I still feel pain inside. And while crying in the bathroom, I realised that I missed my sister alot. I felt kinda empty but my ego in me doesn't want to speak out. I wanted everything to go back the way it was. I then went to work at around 3pm until now. Ita listened to me and we chat about random stuff. She bought me Chatime which I felt really grateful. She said she felt something was wrong and she kinda guessed. When I arrived the store, a customer antam me and of course, I felt hurt. I shut my mouth and just smiled and nodded at the customer. I think that was when Ita noticed. I'm currently studying while working and I'm brainstorming over the stupid poster. Geez.

That's all for this post.
I'm going to continue studying as my marks are dropping due to the stupid quiz.
Till then.

#480 Happening

140912,
I went to Atiqah's farewell party.
At first, it was a little awkward
But then everyone warmed up and yeah (:
I didn't eat because I didn't have the appetite
And I felt tired.
We started taking super lala pictures and it was funny. (:

#4.

LOL.

Yes, I took it with the guys

Which was fun.

My friends laugh at my poses and I laughed at the same time.

Honestly, it's been a while since I had loads of fun!

Later on,

We all went to Publika to shisha.

I missed the feeling and when I started,

The familiar feeling spurge me and I felt at home,

Comfortable with my friends around me.

On 150912,

I went to watch Resident Evil with my family

And Resident Evil has never let me down!
Not once!

Though I was freezing my ass off

But damn,

The action,

The excitement made me forget the cold

And I was at the edge of my sit.

Halfway through the movie,

I noticed I was shivering.

Like non-stop kind of shiver.

I would like to go for another round for that movie.

I'm a resident evil fan! :D

Familiar characters surfaced in the movie

From the anime to the very first movie.

Geez, I wanna watch that movie again.

My life is so happening now

And I feel happy and content.

#479 Changed

2nd sem started like 3 months ago
And everyone has begun to show their true colors.
I've been insulted constantly and yes, it hurts
But I just have to let it slide, right?

But coming from you hurts like shit.
You snapped at me and you're becoming arrogant.
I am not the only one who actually thought about it.
You've changed.

I can't say anything about it 'cause it might hurt you
As I know it'll hurt me.
You look down on me
'Cause your result is much better than you;
You think that just because you have good marks
In the first sem doesn't mean that you can look down on me,
Look down on all of us.
I know things you don't know
And you think I don't know just because you don't know.

I've acknowledge you
But do you acknowledge me?
Results isn't everything, you know.

I know it's tiring to drive to college everyday
But you don't have to snap at me when I ask you why are you tired.
I was being concern and curious.
Your assignments aren't piled as high as mine.
I have to edit the super last minute video we did;
I have to draw the diagram when it's supposed to be a group project;
I have homework to do
And I managed to do all of that every night.
It's natural for me to feel tired but you don't have to be so harsh on me.
I did my homework yet you go to college and start doing it.
Are you mad at me for catching up?
Are you mad at me for doing my homework and stuff?

I just want to improve as I can see my grades dropping
And I want to up 'em.
I'm feeling kind of tired to be looked down upon.
So please,
Don't be mad at me for trying to improve my grades.

As for driving me to college?
It'll all end soon as I'll be moving in a couple of weeks
Plus, I'm going to take my driving exam soon.

But even if I don't sit your car,
You'll still be driving to college.
There is no running away from that.

I'm worried about your attitude
Because people started talking to me about it.

And on that topic,
I wonder if anyone has talked about my bad behind my back.
Hmmm.
I'll never know unless someone tells me straight up front.
I hope I don't offend anyone.
I must becareful of my words.
Not to mention,
Don't get too close with anyone
For there are betrayals lurking around every corner.

Let it go. 
Let it go.

Don't be mad at me for trying to improve my grades.

#478 Ice Skating

You're the mirror to your own reflections
Yet you don't fully understand the actions you make
Hurts others.

You admit that you are at fault yet you don't do anything about it.
You said you're sorry, but it's through the net.
I'm somewhat disappointed in you.
I've lunged your bag everywhere everytime the event came
And you were the one having fun and I wasn't.
I'm happy you invited me, I really am.
Yet I dislike going it's because
I WILL BECOME YOUR MAID.

GEEZ!
HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKE TO HAVE
A TASTE OF YOUR OWN MEDICINE!?

Sorry.
I hope you have reflected everything that happened to you.
wishfulthinking.

So I went ice skating today with my sister and cousin (:
Yeap, it was slippery alright but it was fun once I've got the
Hang of it.
Met my friend at the same time.
He couldn't skate and
There once one point where I pushed him from behind.
It was super funny!
.
.
.
.
OK! I ADMIT!
I fell twice.
The first one was because of inertia
And the second one was because
Some dude passed by me so fast that I fell.
But falling is part of the experience,
All I have to do is to get back onto my feet
And continue skating (:

HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKE TO HAVE A TASTE OF YOUR OWN MEDICINE!? 

#477 Bla

You said you were afraid but you seem to just voice out something you do not feel. Do you just want pity from people? To care and give you all the attention you need? Stories aren't fully told and they aren't conveyed into words that aren't just twisted.

I feel like a temporary underwear; wear once then throw

In a blink of an eye you have replaced us. I knew it would come but the impact was stronger than expected. I'm hurt by your actions though I know I should be more open minded. The thing is, nor only me but my, our other friend too. Rants and complaints, I can handle. But you won't do otherwise. You have ears all around you to listen to you, yet you wouldn't return the favor even others need an ear.

A hypocrite is what they call you and I solemnly agree.

Reading what was wrote really impacts me in every single way. You think that you're in pain but open your eyes, the ones around you may be in pain too. Could be worst than you.

Remember, it's King Kim as I would rule the whole world one day (:

#476 Lazy

I'm like one of the laziest blogger out there.
It's been a while since I actually blogged.
As you can see,
I have green contacts :D
Well,
I'm planing to be odd eyed for a while or something.

It's the holidays :D
And I'm either working or keeping myself super busy.
But today I'm just going to lay off
And relax for a while (:
Yes,
That's me in a dress :D

I look fat :O
Wait, I am fat!
I feel uber lazy right now.
Not going to blog anymore.
Muahaha :D

That's me in a dress :D

#475 Excuse

Went for Zoo Negara on Saturday (120812) for community service.

We were all in the bird department and to tell you the truth,

It's not as bad as other people may think.

Sure, my muscles are sore,

Food may be expensive and disgusting

But it was all worth it.

An experience that I may never forget.

Oh! 

I even made friends (:

A guy called Min Wei which is a July intake.

He calls me Blue as he doesn't know my name.

He reminds me so much of Mah De and Eugene

That it is so funny.

He bull shits alot like Eugene

And his style of talking is like Mah De.

Sorry for the lack of updates my fellow nonexistent blog readers.

Been busy and lazy lately.

Like now.

Going to have to study for my quiz tomorrow.

I hate quizzes.

I even made friends.

#474 Passing Days

So, I'm sorry I didn't update my blog 'the next day'.
I was seriously tired and super distracted.
My bad (:
Okay, update time.
I'll try my best to put all the details in. (:

Saturday (14072012)
My family all had a super last minute late night movie
With my cousin and her family.
We watched The Amazing Spider Man at some shopping mall
At Bukit Jelutong.
It was alright, I guess.
But what kind of spider doesn't make it's own web!?
That was one of the stupidest thing ever!
The outfit was not up to my taste at all.
I prefer the old uniform
Cause it's...
I don't know, nicer, I guess.
I mean, come on!
It's like a freaking ugly swimsuit!
And his eye part,
Was made out from sunglasses that has holes in it.
It's like a holey eye part where it takes a tough time
To focus on an object.
Trust me, I have that kind of glasses.
In fact, those are to help decrease the power of the eye.

Sunday (150712)
I went for the driving ceramah shit.
Wasted 3 whole hours of my youth (:
But other than that, it was fun 'cause I met friends
Though they kept on calling my childish.
I felt abit inferior but maybe that's what I am,
Childish (:
I felt so happy when the instructor said that I was the best
Driver among the whole group.
I actually like being behind the wheels!
No, I did not feel anxious,
I felt like my hands were mold perfectly to the wheel.
Though my coordination isn't good but it's still a pass.
I cannot wait till my L license comes out and
I can start driving and get my P and drive :D
Haha.

Monday (160712)
My sister and I started talking again.

Nope, haven break the record we had last time

Which is not talking for a whole month!

We went to market and stuff (:

And at night, she did my nails.

Cute ain't it!?

Tuesday (170712)

Okay, college started and stuff.

I'm in Calculus and International Business.

I found it extremely boring at first and I was late for

Calculus 'cause it was jam and stuff.

In fact, I was late two days in a row.

Not really my fault though, it rained and jam!

Mr Rose was my lecturer.

Note the WAS.

Ice breaking for the first day and bla bla bla.

Wednesday (180712)
I was stressed and fretting over my time table 

'Cause I didn't like Mr Rose.

I didn't understood him and his class was in the morning.

I felt abandoned as my friends are slowly leaving me.

One by one.

Well, I can't really say they were abandoning me,

But I just felt that way. 

Haha.

Thursday (190712)

I hurt my leg once again

When I hit the chair while sitting down.

Yes.

I'm a clumsy person.

And I went for badminton that day and I ran for 8 freaking rounds.

YAY ME!

Nothing much but yeah (:

OH! 

And I found out I filled my form wrongly

Due to the blurness of me. 

Haha.

But I managed to change timetable (:

So, I'm satisfied right now.

Friday (200712)

I wore blue contact lens to college today!

It felt painful at first but it got better later (:

My friends said I had nice eyes ♥

I've realized that I could actually talk to Pow about 

Anything.

I mean, it's sometimes tough for me to open up

But I found myself placing trust in her.

I can't say she's my bestie 

'Cause I don't believe to best friends.
Thanks for teaching me a lesson;

For making me lose trust in everyone. (:

Anyways,

She understands me more than I could understand myself.

I didn't want to be an open book

And let everyone read my contents of the page.

Hmm.

Maybe I've been too open and stuff.

Went for counselling today and it was retarded.

Never going counselling anymore.

It didn't help because I don't even know what to ask. 

Gosh!

Oh!

Did I mention I went for Taylor's Carnival?

No, I think I didn't.

Anyways, it was... alright.

Yup. I went for the face painting booth

And some dude did this for me (:
I'm quite happy with the results considering 

I'm his first customer and I'm the first person he actually 

Painted on :O

Haha.

It was a fun day today 

But super tiring.

I'm going to bed now.

Nights peeps (:

Blue eyed Asian

#473 Thoughts and Rants

So many things I would like to say or rather type out right now yet the thoughts in my mind are far to fast for my fingers to form the words.

what are friends?

The people I've met are like mere specks of life that cones and go in my life. Some may affect me throughly, some may not. Some are just simply there. Specks that has shaped me into who I am today, a friendless person. I feel as thought I'm lonely all the time. Sure, I talk super alot. Maybe that's because I would want to fill the silence that surrounds me with my voice and the voice of others. Who knows?

Update of what happened today shall be postpone to tomorrow. I'm too tired to type it all down now. I apologize for the depressed-ness. Too many lonely hours have gotten me into like this (: nights.

#472 Short Update

Short update time!!!

So, I've retook my undang exam yesterday (120712)

And I freaking passed.

Thanks to my cousin for lending me her cd.

Though something she said hurt me but ah, 

Whatever.

1 month of holiday is coming to an end

And as much as I would like to say that 

I am going to miss the holidays, I'm lying.

I mean seriously,

If only I could drive then maybe that's a different story all together.

I lack of story books to read and I spent

Most of my time in front of the computer,

Watching anime or just surfing through the web.

Then again, the fact that these days I've been

Waking up at 12 makes me feel happy.

Moving on to the next step for the driving course:

The looooooooong talk.

Luckily, I've made friends already (:

OH!
I've read Naruto manga, chapter 592

And it left me in tears.

It was super sad

And what we tend to see, we judge

Without knowing the truth behind every actions

People made.

This is the reason why I love watching Naruto.

The whole series taught me things that not many

Are able to teach.

I'm ranting, I know

But I'm super bored.

Signing off.

Might update soon (:

Waking up at 12 makes me feel happy.

#471 None

You're right.
I have no friends after all.

#470 Marimo

So, I've bought a Marimo and named it Momo.
It's the cutest thing ever!
Apparently, it's an algae ball which is originally from Japan
And can be often found at Lake Akan in Northern Japan
And Lake Myvatn in Iceland.

Being as paranoid as I am,
I did a short research on Marimos.

To take awesome care on Momo,
I'll have to change his water reguarly.
It doesn't matter if it's mineral water or tap water
As long as I keep Momo clean.
Plus, Momo likes it if the water is nice and cool
As Marimos are originally from cold places.

Marimos like cleanliness :D

Apparently I have to keep Momo happy
By placing him at the palm of my hand
And slowly roll Momo with the tip of the finger.
With that, Momo will be in perfect shape.

Next, I have to place Momo
AWAY from direct sunlight
And Momo will be happy and cozy in room temperature.

Momo is selfish and hates to be with fishes!
Apparently fishes tend to eat Marimos!
NO FISHY ALLOWED!

For more future reference, must check this link
CLICKY!

That's that.
I'm going to paint and maybe sleep or whatever (:
See you, whoever my readers are, later (:

NO FISHY ALLOWED!

#469 Lens

I went to do my contacts yesterday
And it was alright.
Didn't take long to put the contacts in but taking out
Is a huge problem for me.
I just can't stand pinching my eyeball.
EEK!
But ah,
I'm pretty sure I'll over come that problem (:

So,
That done, I'm going to
Call up Metro and take my undang exam.
Yosh,
I can't wait and I'm running super low on cash.
Contact lens sucked up my money and left me penniless.
I shall now think of various ways to save up some cash and stuff.

Money
Money
Money.
The world is revolving around you :(

Going out with my sister later. (:
Might be tempted to buy stuff but I shall resits!!!

Somehow,
I'm feeling somewhat cheerful now.

EEK!

#468 Lazy Lazy

Gosh, I'm such a lazy girl.
It's been quite some time since I update my blog.
Last time, I was so thrilled to update my blog everyday
And now it's like... meh.

Anyways,
Short update right here.
I've somewhat bad/good news.
I've bleached the bottom part of my hair
And dye it red :D

Like so :D
Honestly, I wasn't happy about it.
After all, I originally wanted to dye my hair blue
To get a blue black effect on my hair
And get rid of all the colors.
I now have 4 different tones on my hair :D
Black, brown, dark brown and red.
Cool ain't it?
Sigh, so much for having blue hair :C

I've learnt my lesson and next time,
I shall go to some other hair dye saloon
And I'm going to dye my hair light blue
And when the color has washed out,
It'll become kinda normal dark blue
Which will fuse with my black hair :3
And when my black hair grows,
It can't be seen since the blue has kinda wash out :D
Ah, the beauty of thinking through things.

So, the hair was a birthday present from my mom
And my sister got me lipgloss.
I'm going to do my contact lens tomorrow :D
I feel so excited and scared at the same time.
Phew.
Haha, I'm such a hypocrite.
I remember last time I used to go like,
Ew, I wouldn't want to put anything in my eyes!
I'm eating my own words.
Oh wells (:

People change and so do I.

#467 Over and Out

It's finally over.

I'm glad.

#466 Kenanga

Went to KL with Pow and her boyfriend today.
Yes, I became a lamp post but all is well.
Her boyfriend got me Starbucks :D
Not shitting you.
Haha.

We had late lunch and the whole thing was fun actually
Despite me being lightbulb. (:
Tiring and so on, yada yada.

Gonna go to bed soon, I guess.

Her boyfriend got me Starbucks.

#465 Lonely

Sometimes the happiest person is the loneliest person lived.

I honestly feel alone and lonely.
Sometimes even when I'm at college.
I feel lonely and cast aside.

I may smile and laugh
But I don't know why but I still feel lonely.
As days go by,
I feel lonelier and lonelier.
Why didn't I say so earlier in my previous posts?

That's because I thought it was nothing
But me.
But when I look back,
I found fault in myself and many others.

Cast to a corner without being noticed (:
With a smile on my face I shall be strong enough
To live this through.
The world is not a perfect place
Therefor I have to expect the worst out of everyone.
So much more than being hurt by
Expecting the best out of people.

I'm off.
I feel depressed and lonely.
Anime shall make me feel happier, I hope.

I may smile and laugh.