#444 College

So my college life is alright so far.
Been skipping my lunch meals or pushing it really back (:
My classes are back to back stuff.
It's like
8am - Malaysian Studies.
9.15am - Advance Functions (really  tough)
10.30am - English 4U
11.45am - Advance Functions
1pm - English 4U
2.15pm - Go home.

Every Wednesday is an exception though since my mom has
Extra koko that day and I have no transport.
Am using my sister's lappie right now.
She was awesome enough to lend me her lappie to keep me
Company.
But I have this urge to sleep right now and maybe
Do my homework but since I don't have the requirements
For my homework stuff so I'm just going to blog.
I regretted not bringing my harddisk though.
Contains alot of my wonderful anime (:
Ah well, beggars can't be choosers I suppose.

Why do I have this feeling my friend that promised to
Accompany me to have lunch will abuse that promise?
It's already 3.26pm and she still haven call me.
I think I won't be having lunch.
Fuckit.

I like my classes right now.
The lecturers are funny and I find it quite enjoyable.
Eventhough I don't have breaks D:
Oh wells.
I'm really hungry right now but ah, screw it.
I feel like...
I feel upset 'cause it feels like highschool all over again.
I'm a loser to think that people actually change
When they clearly didn't.

I SHALL GO SKINNY IF THIS GOES ON :D

#443 Beliefs

God is nothing more than a mere system that was created by humans. - Demon King Diamo

Lol. I find that saying abit true. It's from an anime by the way. I apologize for offending you Christians.

I will not apologize to something that does not exists. - Demon King Diamo

If I would change the world to a better place, I will not simply place hands together in my room. Instead, I would use whatever power I have within myself to make the world into a better place. - Demon King Diamo

Oh man, I'm loving this anime (:

#442 Delusional

You're having a delusion, babe. You should get out from it before things go ugly (:

#441 What Are You?

Lol. Are you some kind of sheep or some kind of weird, deformed lamb?

Mary had a lil lamb,
Lil lamb,
Lil lamb.
Mary had a lil lamb,
That's as sweet as white as snow~

it was pretty much random but I ain't giving a shit about it.

aww hunny, did I hit a nerve?

Ouch, that was pretty mean of me but I've always wanted to say that. And hey, bitch like me has moments of meanness. Somehow, being mean is somewhat part of me. If ya can't take it, it's best for you to stay the fuck away from me.

I'd like to keep you at arm's length (:

If staying away from me works fine for you, be it.
If not talking to me works fine for you, be it.
If not glancing at me works fine for you, be it.
I'm glad with whatever. But, don't you ever fucking look at me that way again. The way you look at me? Yeah, it pisses the fuck out of me. You might not know what I'm talking about but it's alright. I'm not the only one who sees that. There are others, yet they are just too afraid to speak up until... (: I'll leave that to that creative imaginary of yours.

I know, I know. I said I'm tired in my previous post but I had this urge to type those things out from my head. Maybe it's a sign or something. Or maybe I just need to clear my head and fill it into my blog so I could get a goodnight's sleep.

Hot damn. It's almost 1am. My lids are heavy yet my mind feels as fresh as a... Sea cucumber (:

Nights whosever. Boy, I feel so tired and fresh at the same time (:

#440 Decisions

I'm going to register for college tomorrow. Uh, technically today but you'll get my drift. I've finally persuaded dad to allow me to take CPU instead of Foundation in Business. I don't have the interest in business and I'm not sure if I would like to study law or somewhat, so I'm betting CPU is the best one. Ah, I'm so tired. Will blog more tomorrow (:

#439 Silently

I'm silently laughing at you behind your back. It may be mean but I just can't help it. You deserve it. I hope your future has install you with so much more terrible things. Oh man. That was so karmatic, I have to put a line between those things I've thought. Maybe that way, Karma might not come for me.

But the both of us know I'm lying.

Thinking back, I had to admit that I was nothing but naive. To top it off, I was a hypocrite, to call you one. Hell, my temper and emotions are always running a mock. Reading my diary and my older posts. Conclusion is that I was a sadist. I wanted to make you feel sad, angry, most of all, pain.


Your pain is my pleasure.

Man, I sound so sadistic right now. But hey, I'm not lying. Honestly, I didn't lie that much when I had a conversational with you. Maybe once in a while, but definitely not all the time. I have secrets too, you know, and girls like you aren't suit to hear them. Why? After hearing them, you'll go like, "Kim, you know you shouldn't do that, it's wrong," Uh, hell yeah I know it's wrong but I find it annoying every time someone says that. Why can't they just you know, leave me be.

But that is what friends are for, I can totally hear you say that. Well, shut it. I don't need to hear that's what friends do crap. Well, maybe not now. Or maybe not from you. Oh God, never from you.

Keep this in mind though, the past is like cuts and bruises. Even if those have faded but it's scared deep in our hearts. This post maybe short but then again, all my posts are short. What I'm trying to say is, I was/am one sadistic bitch and I was/am happy that I've made people around me feel pain. Because without pain, you ain't able to learn things, babe. I've learnt that the hard way myself.

Nights my non existence readers.

#438 Spoken Words

"It's like stress free!
No more being envious,
No more wasting my energy on being angry,
No more being so competitive,
No more standing in the shadows,
Best of all, 
No more being hurt over and over and over again! 
My life have been sooo much better ever since,"

Those words that floated out from my mouth
Were the most optimistic things I've ever said.

Honestly,
Looking back,
What I've said that day were actually true.
I'm not as bitter as I was last time.

Badminton today was alright (:
I've got my momentum back
But I still lack so many things.
But it's okay.
I'm slowly gaining my strength and speed
And everything back (:

Facebook is becoming nothing but a bore.
I've realized that I've lack friends.
But it's okay.

(:

#437 SPM Results

So, today is rather emo for me, I guess.
I'm not entirely emo but just disappointed.
But for a short while only
'Cause I kinda expected that.

"It'll take a miracle for me to get 3A's,"

And secretly I hope I could get 4As.
Because having 4As will not only let me surpass my sister
But to be able to get cash.
But the thing is,
When it comes to cash,
I know I'm always at the losing side.
Always.

Why?
I've done pretty much alot of things that involved money
Which then became karma and shit.
Things that involve coning people,
Stealing and taking opportunities on people's cash.
So,

What comes around goes around

And I pretty much expect that.
Yeah,
I was thinking about it last night
While listening to songs.

Truthfully,
My whole family didn't thought I had it in me.
They didn't think that I could get 3As.
(There, I said it. My super low results.)
My mom was happy for me,
My sister was surprised
And my dad purposely came home early from work.
Wow.
I was wondering why are they happy when I feel bad.
It's selfish for me to say that but I'm in need for cash.
Damn.
Looks like I might be finding a job soon.
Double damn.

Or maybe not.
Don't know.
But right now it's about choices.
College choices.
Da da dummmm.

Right now,
It's either CPU or business foundation.
My cousin told me if I were to study business,
Instead of not having a job,
I can create a business which is great.

Oh man.
And my time limit is this Saturday.
No more, no less.

Gosh.
It's a freaking nightmare.
Worst off,
I went crazy with my spending last week
And I found out I left only a hundred.
I had four hundred and what happened to the cash?

Hair.
Paintball.
Shopping.
More shopping.
More more shopping.
Handphone clothes. ._.

Damn.
I have to start saving and try to wisely spend my money.
YOSH!

Happily talking to my peeps (:

#436 A Day Before Results

So, I went to KL with Jess today
To kinda celebrate our last day of not knowing
Our SPM results (:

It was fun and extremely tiring though.
My whole body aches alot
Due to yesterday's badminton and the day before's paintball.
My buttcheeks hurt the most.
(Does that mean my butt is going to be smaller?)
I finally bought a Chopper hat!
It's so freaking cute and bleh!

Jesslyn became a photographer today.
She was taking awesome pictures of me
(Perasan there for a while)
And I love the results.
It was fun and cheerful at the same time.

I even made my dad wear it (:

Tomorrow I'm not sure if I'm going to get my results or something.
Transport problem and such. :C
So...
It's being suspended in midair.
Gosh,
I really want to get over it as soon as possible
But that seems unlikely.
I don't want to find out my results through sms
'Cause it just seemed so wrong.

Oh, my bruise became worst and my skin
Peeled off yesterday due to badminton.
Gosh,
I don't want to ever remember yesterday
'Cause it was so frustrating and freaking embarrassing.

Ew, I can see my leg hair o.o

It was fun and cheerful at the same time.

#435 It's Paintball

To make it short.
I wasn't too happy with the results and such.
I don't know
But I get this feeling that my model isn't
Really into it.
The whole bloody thing was awkward and shit
And we didn't go to the place where I wanted too.
The lighting outside was beautiful
And not a shed of dark clouds.
But ah,
Maybe I'll just ask my sister to help me
With the make up and I'll take pictures of myself :C

Anyways,
Paintball today was freaking awesome.
Words can't describe how I feel.
The happiness that contains in me is bubbling with excitement.

The gun I was holding at first had some problems
And the people there changed gun with me and
It was extremely big and heavy.
It was tough for me to run around and shoot
But hell, it was freaking fun.

I have a couple of bruises on my knee
Due to the fact I knelt down pretty hard.
But it was a small price to pay for such a fun day.
Apparently, while standing behind that tree,
Some pervert shot me right in the ass.
Like really on the ass!
It kinda hurt for a while but it's much better now.
Thank goodness for thick pants!

The guys that own the park
Was impressed with me for giving such a
Good performance, heh.

I've realized that I don't have the skill to take
People photos.
Only objects or animals.
I suck as a photographer :C
On the other hand...

Paintball was freaking awesome!

#434 Hectic

So, my week has been pretty much hectic lately.
I went to do my hair yesterday (Thursday 150312)
And I absolutely love the results (:
Though I wish my first half is black in color
So the red can be seen more clearly.
Oh, what to do?
What's done has been done (:

The process of doing my hair.
It took only 2 hours and the price was really cheap!
I was expecting around RM200
But it was less than half that price!
It was only RM70 which pleases me alot (:
I wanted to dye parts of my fringe but I was afraid
So I'm thinking maybe next time (:

Yeah. it's okay to be jealous of me having an awesome hair color
LOL!
Jokes.

So, I went shopping today to get some stuff
For tomorrow's photoshoot session with my friend.
I call it,
Project White Demon.
Because the contest I'm entering wants us to use
A pair of horns o.o
So, I went to look at the horns at Party World at Ikano
And I gasped when I saw the price.
It was RM20!
I'm like whaa!?

I then turned towards my skill
And hoped that I did a good job on it.
We-ell,
I did a pretty decent job on it considering it's my first time.
Sure,
It looks out of shape and stuff but ah,
It's handmade and I'm not so pro at sewing.
It should be alright.
Not to mention, I bought fake blood which really look like blood. o.o

I'm quite excited about tomorrow though
And I hope I get good shots!
I'm thinking of getting a DSLR but no rush.
Just thinking about it.
Maybe learn bits from Jesslyn and stuff (:

Yeah, fangs were in the package and I thought I'll try it out.

Turns out it was really troublesome and annoying.

It didn't really fit into my teeth and the taste sucks balls.

Oh wells,

I'm pretty sure I don't need fangs anyways!

I'm going to play paintball on Sunday

And I've been jumping on my seat ever since!

I mean, paintball!

It'll be painful, sure, but F-U-N.

I'm so looking forward to it.

My mom told me they are having a 

Hot air balloon thing at Putrajaya.

It's like RM10 for 10 minutes which is kinda decent.

Though I'm not really fond of height but hey,

It's a once in a life time kind of shit

And I really want to go.

Might talk to my sister about going :D

I'm pretty sure she'll want to go too (I hope)

Apparently,
I went to Tropicana City today to get The Fray's

Latest album called: Scars and Stories.

I freaking love his voice for it's unique and 

Soothing at the same time.

But they didn't have it and I was kind of depressed.

Oh wells,

I'm pretty sure I'll get it soon though.

Have a feeling of it :3

Well, 

I'm off. 

I'm going to continue to my sewing for I owe my friend

A big time!

She agreed to model for me for my competition.

Photoshoot session, here we come! :D

F-U-N

#433 Kiss Me

Yes, that is me with eye liner.
A very old old picture.
I've realized I became vain every passing day.
I wasn't like that last time.
Maybe it's 'cause I didn't have a wonderful camera or something.
I'm thinking of buying a pair of contacts
For myself during my birthday.
A small gift to myself, perhaps?

My favorite song, Kiss Me
Which was originally by Sixpence None The Richer,
Is sung by my all time favorite band.
THE FRAY♥
Really.
My fav band singing my fav song.
What a beautiful coincidence (:

Ah~
I shall buy their latest album.
Scars and Stories.
Extremely love them.
Their songs are getting better and better as the years pass.
Loving them. (:

Oh kiss me out of the bearded barley,
Nightly , beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You'll wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift you open hand
Strike up the band, and make the fireflies dance
Silvermoon's sparkling,
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house 
Swing me , upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring , bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift you open hand
Strike up the band, and make the fireflies dance
Silvermoon's sparkling,
So kiss me

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift you open hand
Strike up the band, and make the fireflies dance
Silvermoon's sparkling,
So kiss me

So kiss me
So kiss me 

Kiss me 

#432 SingaBORE

I am loving my new phone casing.
It matches my nails! :D
I like shiny stuff that has a black/midnight blue background.

Came back from Singapore today
And the whole trip was nothing but depressingly fun/bored.
Seriously.
I didn't even get to take a look at the Merlion!
It was depressing 'cause I felt nothing but poor.
Everything is nothing but times 2.5!
And if  I were to times it, it costs way more than it should.
So,
Sightseeing wasn't pleasant 'cause my mom killed my mood.
All she does was nag and nag.
It's like everything I do is wrong and shit.
Even when I'm right, she'll be to ego to apologize or something.

The food there was awesome though :D
I had wor dip for lunch and I died and revived.

They actually call Mc Donalds Mc Cafe in Singapore!

Apparently this kid caught my eye when I was taking a picture of the fountain.
He is so adorable!
And I bet he'll look cute and hot when he grows up :D
Yeah, I know.
I stalk people :D

Sad news alert!
My mom said to push my hair thingy to Thursday.
Apparently, she's too 'busy' to bring me :C
Oh wells.

SPM results has been pushed a day earlier.
I'm not sure if I should be freaking out or what.
I hope I actually get some decent marks.
Phew.
I shall not stress over that for now.
Maybe starting next week I'll stress over it or something.

I'm off to watch some anime (:

As usual.

#431 Photographer and Such

So, yesterday (110312) I went to OU 

With Aslene and her gang.

I was her photographer for the day, I guess.

It was extremely fun and tiring.

Had a photoshoot session with them at some point.

I wanted to text out my photography skills and all

And to my surprise, it was alright.

I thought, you know,

My skills isn't that good since, well.

I was abit insulted at some point too

But what to do? (:

And so, I want to prove myself and others 

I can do it.

And I actually did it, I guess.

I'm proud of some of the shots (:

I would like to thank Aslene for inviting me

And actually giving me the chance to do the photosession thing.

I mean,

It's been quite a while since I've wanted to do a photosession 

With someone.

And I'm glad I was given this wonderful chance (:

I'm touched and bubbling with happiness.

There are some points where I feel abit 

Unappreciated and I think I've overreacted.

I fully understand how Jesslyn felt

When she told me she took pictures and people doesn't credit her.

I feel a bit selfish right now but I don't give a damn.

But is the fun that is considered right?

Maybe a tiny bit of appreciation.

maybejustputmeinthecreditsandillbeextremelyhappyandfullyfeeltheappreciation

I would like to take more pictures. 

And have more photoshoot sessions with cosplayers

Or just yeah (:

News alert!

My mom is going to bring me to do my hair on Wednesday.

I'm pretty excited about that :D

Might not be blogging for a while though.

Going overseas and such.

Will come back to blog asap. 

I'm an excessive blogger, I guess :D

ps, Von, when you're reading this, please tell me what do you think bout it? :D

The Fray is freaking awesome! :D