#468 Lazy Lazy

Gosh, I'm such a lazy girl.
It's been quite some time since I update my blog.
Last time, I was so thrilled to update my blog everyday
And now it's like... meh.

Anyways,
Short update right here.
I've somewhat bad/good news.
I've bleached the bottom part of my hair
And dye it red :D

Like so :D
Honestly, I wasn't happy about it.
After all, I originally wanted to dye my hair blue
To get a blue black effect on my hair
And get rid of all the colors.
I now have 4 different tones on my hair :D
Black, brown, dark brown and red.
Cool ain't it?
Sigh, so much for having blue hair :C

I've learnt my lesson and next time,
I shall go to some other hair dye saloon
And I'm going to dye my hair light blue
And when the color has washed out,
It'll become kinda normal dark blue
Which will fuse with my black hair :3
And when my black hair grows,
It can't be seen since the blue has kinda wash out :D
Ah, the beauty of thinking through things.

So, the hair was a birthday present from my mom
And my sister got me lipgloss.
I'm going to do my contact lens tomorrow :D
I feel so excited and scared at the same time.
Phew.
Haha, I'm such a hypocrite.
I remember last time I used to go like,
Ew, I wouldn't want to put anything in my eyes!
I'm eating my own words.
Oh wells (:

People change and so do I.

#467 Over and Out

It's finally over.

I'm glad.

#466 Kenanga

Went to KL with Pow and her boyfriend today.
Yes, I became a lamp post but all is well.
Her boyfriend got me Starbucks :D
Not shitting you.
Haha.

We had late lunch and the whole thing was fun actually
Despite me being lightbulb. (:
Tiring and so on, yada yada.

Gonna go to bed soon, I guess.

Her boyfriend got me Starbucks.

#465 Lonely

Sometimes the happiest person is the loneliest person lived.

I honestly feel alone and lonely.
Sometimes even when I'm at college.
I feel lonely and cast aside.

I may smile and laugh
But I don't know why but I still feel lonely.
As days go by,
I feel lonelier and lonelier.
Why didn't I say so earlier in my previous posts?

That's because I thought it was nothing
But me.
But when I look back,
I found fault in myself and many others.

Cast to a corner without being noticed (:
With a smile on my face I shall be strong enough
To live this through.
The world is not a perfect place
Therefor I have to expect the worst out of everyone.
So much more than being hurt by
Expecting the best out of people.

I'm off.
I feel depressed and lonely.
Anime shall make me feel happier, I hope.

I may smile and laugh.

#464 Rants and Miss

It's the holidays and I miss college.
I hate being at home;
Being near my family.
Even if I don't show much these past few months
But I feel like I'm suffering everytime I'm with them.
I always get scolded or screamed at.
The fault is always, always mine.
If things didn't go so well,
It's my fault is mine and no one else.
If someone feels like screaming,
They always find me to scream at.

I always have to bite
Back my tongue and not
Lash out words that are coated with poison.
But why should I do that?
If I'm not at fault,
Why must I keep quiet?

The answer is simply, really.
I need their money.
I bite back my words.. for money.
I stop myself for screaming back... for money.
Yes, I do those for money
And when I'm able to get out of this
God damn family,
Not even Hell will be able to bring me back here.
I can't wait, damn it, I can't.

I miss them people.
I miss college.
I miss being able to get out of this house.
I miss those and I can't wait for the next semester to come.

Not even Hell will be able to bring me back here.

#463 Bitches

This finger was made for the bitches that pissed me off.

Fuckoffbitches