#290 Emergency Kit

I bet you're wondering what in the world is that, right?
Well, non-existing readers,
It's my emergency kit (:

It contains stuff you can't imagine (:
Comb,
Muscle cramp relieve gel,
Cotton buds,
Dettol cream,
Plasters and
Stomach ache pills.
(:
Will bring it to school everyday.
You'll never know when you're going to need it, right?

Yes,
It's all in my phone box.
Well,
It's the only small box I can find.
And it's big enough to fit all of my stuff o.o

For emergency

#289 Soft Spoken

I've finally done both my history and perdagangan exams which

The late night stay awake thing paid off.

Anyways,

Here's a vid I made during my studies.

Relieves stress, you know? 

Enjoy ♥♥♥

#288 As Time Passed By

So, I'm still awake and it's like 2.16 in the morning
And I haven finish studying my stupid perdagangan.
Almost done with one chapter and it's killing me.
Shit,
I have a feeling I'm going to have panda eyes tomorrow.
I'm not sure if I got all the facts down yet D:
Imagine,
All the studying and staying up late just to get a freaking pass
When I should get an A :/

NO NEGATIVE THOUGHTS RIGHT NOW!

So not in the mood to study now
When I actually have another chapter to go.
This is the outcome of last minute studying (:
And boy,
It sucks,
Big time.

And to think I have to wake up at 5 later
Just so I could help my sister do her stupid hair.
Ah fark :(
I have a weird feeling that I've gained alot of weight.
Should cut down on candies :(
And more exercise D:
I know I'm ranting now
But I need to chill and cool off.
Just finished half a big bottle of 100 plus (:
And had two mentos.
Yippee!

I'ma continue studying now :/
Life sucks.

I should get an A (:

#287 Control

Yes, I have the urge to take my scissors right now and
Cut my bloody ugly fringe
Then take it and stab myself in the heart.

That's how pissed off at my hair at times (:

Another week of school,
Another week of exams.
I kinda feel guilty for not cramming stupid
History in my head.
I mean I understand but I need to know
All the damn facts which I find annoying.

Somehow,
Most of my friends tend to find me...
Cheerful?
Maybe it's because they don't know
The hideous monster lurking inside me.
The monster that laughs at every mistake I've done,
Every single flaw I have in me.
Yet,
Somehow,
I feel like I'm that monster.
Laughing at my own flaws.
My every wrong move,
Every wrong path.
NOPE (:
They don't know that.
A couple know that I tend to keep things in my heart.
But they don't know the rest of me.
The ugly side of me, I guess.

I know I get moved easily.
Still working on that.
Working on my stupid emotions.
I won't let them control me 
And yet, I will control them.

Currently struggling to discipline myself
To go have my bath and study my stupid history.
I'm proud to say that I've finished two malay essays today
In a shot.
Read half my history but haven finished my english homework.
But what's the point of doing it?
I feel rather lazy and all that stupid crap.

If I jump, will you catch me?
Or will you jump and together we soar in the sky. (:

#286 Memories Down The Hall

It's been quite a while since I've dream.
Few nights ago,
I had this rather weird dream about me being
Cinderella and I found my prince Charming.
Like I said,
Weird.

In my dream,
I was a Princess and I had to
Leave my parents and everyone due to the fact
Someone tried to murder me.
So,
I took ninja (?) lessons,
Ran away from home and start a new life.

I became someone's stepdaughter
Just so I could hide my identity.
Like the Cinderella story,
It's almost the same.
But I met him at the Ball
Where he stood by a corner and sighed in
Deep depression.
I didn't know he was the prince.
We talked and talked
Until I have to go back and continue my house chores.

Everyday,
We meet up at a Secret Garden
Near my 'home'.
Obviously the 'feelings' started to bloom
And I found out that he was my childhood friend.
The kid I fell in love when I was, too, a kid.
Funny how he didn't recognize me.
But in the end,
He recognize me and the person that tried to kill me
Was actually my stepmother.
Whom was a witch that can transform herself
Into an ugly dragon.

So,
It's like a mash-up
Cinderella, Secret Garden, Sleeping Beauty story.
Funny how my dream work.

♥

I should be studying now.
But I fell asleep while studying history.
It was extremely boring.
And with the thunder storm and all?
Yeah,
It's like a melody to my ears (NOT!)

Slept around 5 in the morning this morning.
Due to the fact I was obsessed with the internet connection.
It was freaking fast!
Anyways,
I was busy watching Naruto and I cleaned the toilet in process.
Life is just amazing that.

♥

I'm being treated as though I'm a stranger in this damn house.

#285 Disown Me Already

I know I'm at fault.
I know I'm wrong.
I know I always bring unpleasant aura at home.
I know I will always cause you guys to be sad.
I know I'm nothing but a loser.
A failure.
A stupid daughter you have.
And I bet there are times you wish you could have
Done abortion.
I'm hurt by the words you said.

I've spent so much money on you.
Maybe you should go back to government school
Or maybe I should stop letting you go to school.

You really love money that much, huh?
I welcome you with open arms to do so.

WHY DON'T YOU DISOWN ME ALREADY!?

I yelled at my mom.
Those are the exact words I said to her.
And no,
I won't take it back.

How many times have you think through this?

Alot...

Alot of time, mom.
Since like form 3?

I won't take it back,
But I will keep it in my heart.

#284 There And Back

Let's see.

Okay,

On the 15th of April,

I went to Study Camp with my friends at some ulu place (:

It was awesome (?)

I think :3

We were in the bus and are effing hyper (:

And thus,

We camwhore like... shit?

Kinda lazy to blog right now.

So..

I'm going to post up SOME pictures (:

Nope.

I didn't swim in the hot spring.

Why?

Oh it's because 

First of all,

I can't swim.

Second,

Water phobia.

Third,

Self-conscious. :)

But I did sit and soak myself in it :D

Heee...

(:

#283 Life

Time to do my weekly update.

It feels like there isn't much to say.

But I would like to highlight something now.

Sure it's easy to advice someone.

But don't get upset when that certain someone doesn't 

Follow your advice.

They asked for your advice,

Not for you to order them.

Seriously.

Oh and the fact that you kept on offending me

Without you yourself knowing?

Yeah,

I'm bottling it all up :)

So I won't bloody burst infront of you.

But let me warn you,

My patience has a limit.

But my anger doesn't :)

It's like a balloon, you know?

The more air you put it,

The sooner it'll burst right?

Yeah,

Your offending words are your air

And slower yet noticeably,

You're chucking your damn air in my 'balloon' :) 

I just hope that I won't burst in front of our friends.

That will be a very, very embarrassing moment.

No,

Not for me.

But for you :3

-Inserts evil cackle here-

Currently spamming my phone with games and themes.

Yes,

That is how bored I am right now :/

I can't wait for Study Camp.

I've a feeling it's going to be fun.

(I hope)

Might bring cards even though teacher say cannot :3

Teenagers live to break rules :D

Bought Vampire Diaries: The Return: Midnight.

YES! 

There goes half my allowance :C

Going to cut down on buying candy.

It's killing my wallet and my tummy?

ALL THAT FATS HAVE TO GO.

NOW!

I'm just a bored lil girl :C

#282 Replaced

It feels like they all focus on her and her only.
And I'm like a replacement.
If she ain't here,
They'll look for me
And I fucking hate it.
I know,
I sound like a fucking kid but I don't give a fuck
At the moment.

Rather pissed at myself at the moment.
Still have a pile of homework I haven do
And it's due tomorrow.
Didn't get a fucking pencil box that I wanted.
It's black on the outside
And red in the inside. :)
So Kimberly :)

Had a girl session with Lai Kuan today.
Apparently,
Her problem has yet to be solved
And I have no clue how the hell do I help her.
I hate seeing her like this,
It kinda makes me feel useless and all that crap.

Anyways,
Bought a new cat pendent :3
Got kinda bored of the old one though
And thought maybe I get this just for a change.

Oh,
And I have yet to find my darling wallet. :/
And I'm rather depressed about it.
But what can I do right?
It's my own carelessness.
Fuck myself to the fucking max.

Oh,
Went to MPH today
And
Vampire Diaries: The Return: Midnight
Came out
And it's like RM40 without members card.
Gosh.
If includes members card,
I'll get like 20% off.
So fucking frustrated.
I'm off to do my homework now.
FML :)

Fuck myself to the fucking max

#281 Glass Is Shattered From The Fight

Being emo at the moment.
It seems like nothing is going right.
I feel like yelling and crying for no reasons.

Miss Tana kinda make me feel unhappy today.
I knew I was doing my maths exams wrongly
And she came and started to like pressurized me.
Plus time was ticking
And yeah.
For the first time of the year,
The first day of the month
And tears are spilled.

I find that this school's teacher
Are kinda sensitive.
It's like we have to watch out words
Before we actually say it out.
Can't they take a damn joke?
And fucking laugh it off?
Like seriously.

I hate it.
I fucking hate it.

I'm not emo (:
I'm alright.
I'm Kimberly. :)
I'm fine :)

Somehow,
Words like these doesn't seemed
Like it work anymore.

I have a feeling I'm going to hate tomorrow.

#280 As He Goes

It was an exam week

And I was extremely stressed out.

For the first time, I guess :)

I requested to Mr Aru for a make-up test

For Perdagangan cause I don't know 

What contains in that chapter.

So yeah.

Had to skip pjk just because of 

Some test I had no idea how to do.

Yesterday (Thursday 310311),

Girl Guides had a baking session.

We did batik cake.

To bad I didn't take a picture of it though,

Maybe I'm going to make another one tomorrow,

If I have the time that is :)

Anyways,

Found out my wallet is officially lost.

It's not at home,

It's not in school.

It's in the hands of a devious human. :(

All my wonderful memories are in there.

My movie tickets,

My cards,

My cash,

My receipt

And so much more! D:

Screw my stupid small brain

For not remembering where did I last put it.

I just remembered.

My MPH and Popular cards are in there too.

My Sasuke card is in there,

My Cloud card is in there.

OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO! D:

My darling pictures are in there.

My wonderful cards are in there.

I don't really give a shit about the cash,

I just want the things that contains in my wallet.

SHIT!

MY PLASTERS!

I'm sorry my dear Boyfriend :(

My wallet is officially lost :(