#462 Acting

On Monday (200512),
We had our drama presentation.
Rachel and I chose the part where Hamlet had a sword fight.
Honestly,
I kinda find it unfair 'cause I had to do everything.
I had to write a script and think of fighting movements.
I had to get the props and think of outfit.
I had to spend time searching for the right background music.
In fact,
I did most of the things to have it ruined.

Ruined how?

Well,
Rachel forgotten her lines.
The sword broke halfway when we were doing our fight.
And so much more.

I got depressed and stuff to not have it go
According my plan,
My imagination.

But it all ended well.
Rachel and I got the highest mark possible and it pleases me.
I felt so happy!
We even beat Michelle and it is everything to me.

Oh, I miss acting.
I miss it so much.

I remember when I was younger,
I had this dream where I am a famous actress.
My dream was to walk to red carpet.
And as I grow older,
I realised how naif my dream was
And I changed my mind.
But yes, I wish I am able to act once again.

Maybe enroll for acting school or something.
Last time,
I tend to talk to myself,
Acting out scenes of me being a spy,
Me falling in love,
Me being betrayed and so on.
It was fun but boring at the same time as no one wanted
To play with me.
I'm a lonely kid.

Anyways,
I'm happy with my acting results and stuff. (:
Will strive towards to get higher marks and so on!

I miss acting.

#461 Feelings

Phew!
It has been a hectic week for me
As assignments an quiz have been constantly rolling in for me.

College is great,
No doubt about that.
Constant laughter and smiles linger on my face
As I reach home every day.

Today is 'one of those days' day.
I did not do well in both my quiz in advance function and english.
Found out one of the girls in the class photo above
Cheated not once but three times during quiz
And it's pissing me off.
Why should she get away with it and get high marks
When she cheated!?
She copied one of the senior's presentation
And changed her answers when we're discussing the questions.
TWICE!
And she got extremely high marks out of it.
Ironically, she told my friend that I am the only person she can't click with.
How could I click with...
With her!?
After I've known her background and stuff!?

She is okay at times, I admit that
But not when it comes to cheating and having high marks
Over the rest of us!
We studied it and stuff and she got high marks.
She can just go to freaking hell!

Stupid bitch.

So,
I'm currently doing my assignments and script
For both my courses.
I need to do it well as it is important and contains
HUGE marks in it.

Why are you such a nice bastard!?
I'm scared.
I'm scared that if you're any nice to me,
I might be drawn to you and it scares me.
It really does.
Stop.
Stop being so nice to me already.
Don't reel me in with those sweet actions you do.
Don't reel me in with those sweet words of yours
And those sweet, unnecessary apologies.

Enough.
The distance between us is enough.
Don't come any closer.
Don't pull my heart any closer.
Just leave me alone already!


Stupid bitch.

#460 You're The Bow As I Am The Violin

You're the bow as I am the violin.

Together; we create music words can't describe,

Alone; we're nothing more than a mere shell and bow.

You're the bow as I am the violin.

Without you, I am not able to make beautiful music,

Just a sprang here and a twang there.

You're the bow as I am the violin.

Without me, you're just a stick,

Unable to dance upon my strings to make beautiful songs.

You're the bow as I am the violin.

We are meant for each other 

As we come in pairs.

You're the bow as I am the violin.

#459 Project Eating Spree

On Wednesday (020512),
My friends and I gathered at college to have an eating spree!
Pow, Pearly, Samantha, Rachel and I
All arrived at 0800.
We then discussed where to it and how to video our project.
Rachel gave us a brilliant idea that we should eat dim sum.
Our budgets are low but if we combine them together,
It was enough.

After dimsum,
They had tong sui.
I didn't eat it 'cause I never liked tong sui.
But it looked good.

Then, we went back to college to rest our tummy.
Rachel had to leave and Sasha came.
We then had rojak and cendol.
It was delicious.
Yet we had it in the rain.
Eugene joined us in the midst of us eating
And we then went back to college to chill.

Eugene left and we had a heart to heart group chat.
We then went for lunch at Paparich.
Pearly had to go after eating
And the rest of us went to college to chill.

It happened (:

Went home feeling happy and content.

I'm sorry for summarizing everything
I feel really lazy :C

It's a great time/day though.

It happened (:

#458 Hope

So, today at level 6,
I was rather depressed over the fact that my
Gal friends are getting prettier and prettier every day and
I'm just... me.
Nothing special,
Short,
Ugly
And fat
And so on.

Friend A was at a vending machine, buying drinks
And apparently he overheard our conversation.
Then friend B went to the toilet,
Leaving me alone sulking over the pretty girls.
When B came back from the toilet,
She was holding a can of soya milk.
B then passed me the cold can and said,
"A asked me to pass this to you,
He told me to tell you to calm down,"

My heart felt lighter and I felt happier.
I told my cousin about it and she said,
"Guys like this gives me hope."

Guys like this really gives every single girls out there a hope.
And it happened to me (:

"He told me to tell you to calm down,"

#457 Suicide

So, I'm having one week holidays and it's the second day.
It's killing me.
I miss college so.

A friend of mine is suffering from depression
And she had thoughts of suicide.

I kinda get how she felt knowing how great the depression is
That causes her to have thoughts of committing suicide.
I tried to console her
'Cause I knew how hard it is to get through it
Without any helping hands of people.

A few advises might not do the trick
But word of encouragement will do (:

Will not continue this topic as it makes me a ted bit emo.

I miss college.

#456 Sob Story

"Look at me!" she cried as she cuddled his head in her lap.
"Don't you dare close your eyes!"

Everyone around her went silent as they watched the two lovers. Only the sound of rain and thunder were heard, not to mention, her wails.

"Dammit! We've come this far, this freaking far!" her armor was not doing a good job from preventing her clothes to get wet.

They've come this far, the war between good an evil. They've won but the payment was great, they're going to lose a wonderful leader, a loyal friend... a lover.

She let out a loud wail towards the sky, her eyes were closed and her heart was tore open. Her insides felt as though it has been violently clawed and teared. Sobs were followed after the wail and his chest was rising and falling.

Rising and falling.

Just a matter or time before he would be taken far, far away from the arms of his lover.

His heart no longer beat as fast, in fact, it's slowing down rapidly.

"I love you, you knuckle head," he managed to choked out as he wiped off a tear from her cheek. He was insufferable that way. She hated and loved him for that. He always know the right things to do or to say to make her feel better. His action would always cause her to smile no matter how much grief she felt in her.

Through her tears, she smiled and gave out a soft half choke half laughter. Sarah, her close friend, buried her face in Leonard's shoulder blade as he comforted her. Her friends around her either cried or have a grim face put on.

"Don't go," she begged.

"I'm leaving, love, I can't stay any longer,"

"Please, don't go," she whispered as she held his hand.

"We'll meet again, I promise,"

"Don't promise such foolish things," she smiled through her tears.

"But I've never go back on my promise,"

"But how can you promise something like that?"

"Miracle happens when you least expect it,"

His voice was carried through the wind along with his final breath.
Her last teardrop landed neatly on his cheek which was then mixed with rain water.
His green eyes no longer has the mischievous light glowing from within.
Her heart is no longer in one piece.

♥