#51 Blackmailing

Blackmailing is fun,
People do what you want.
Either bake under the sun,
Or go for a run.

They can bring you a fork,
So you can eat you favorite pork.
Or go to New York,
To get you a toy hawk.

They can't refuse,
When you want a tart.
If they do refuse,
Let the blackmailing start!

Only people like me
Has the power.
Let's go for a shopping spree,
So you can buy me a flower!

I wrote that last year.
Edward Leong gave me the insperation.
He kept asking me
Why do I always blackmail him.

Blackmailing is fun!

#50 Power Of The Sun

Come out, sun,
Come to this cruel world.
Come to this heartless night
And shine through every dark shadow
In every corner.

Shine through my soul,
Shine through my pain,
My thoughts,
My heart.

Brighten up the whole world.
Come,
I bid you.
And burn everyone alive!

Toast everyone I hate!
I bid you!
Kill everyone in your way!
I bid you!
Blind my enemies!
I bid you!

Take no mercy!
Dry up the sea!
But let me be,
Your one and only!

Shine through every dark shadow

#49 Loading, Loading, Loaded

I'm currently at episode 151.
220-151=69
69 episodes to go!
I can't wait till I finished the whole series.
I wanna watch Naruto Shippuden.
Heard it's good to watch.

Hann kinda spoil the plot.
He told me,
Sasuke went back to the Leaf Village and
He wanna destroy it.
I hope he did though.
Something unexpected.
I bet that you bet that Sasuke failed.
Well,
Things might turned out to be different.

Argh!
Can't this thingy load any faster?
I'm dying over here!
I wanna watch Naruto!

Screw school!
Without it,
I could actually watch Naruto everyday!
Load
Load
Load
Load!

I guess I'm getting used to be alone.
All I have to do is stuff,
Just to distract myself from thinking about killing people.
Oh!
I tried doing add maths yesterday
And I almost
ALMOST
Got pissed about it.
It's so hard!
Must do more exercise!

69 episodes more to go!

#48 Come Out, Come Out, Where Ever You Are

Right now,
I'm waiting for Naruto to load.
Yesterday,
My sister went to One U.
Help me buy Sasuke doll for me?
I plead.
She said
Yes.

I jumped for joy!
The unfortunate thing was,
When she came back,
She told me it was out of stock!
I didn't know alot of people like that doll.
She said.

Damn girl,
You wouldn't know.
I can't wait to have that doll,
Despite what my mother said.
I mean,
I WILL buy it with my own money!
Yes,
I'm stubborn
But that runs in the family.

I've changed my blog link.
Weeeeeeee....
I guess I got tired of black roses.
Hmmm...
What is behind the black shadow?
More black shadows?

That's something I've been wondering about recently.
Anyways,
Few days ago,
My hamster have a baby.
I told my maid to take out the male
But did she listen?
Noooooooo!
I told my mom and sister,
Did they listen?
Noooooo!
Nobody listens to Kimberly.
And what happened?

The baby got eaten

Again.

See?
This is what happened if you don't listen to me.

Better listen to Kimberly

#47 Waiting For Something To Happen In My Life

I'm running out of pictures to put!
Have to find more pictures!
Anyways,
School is passing by real quick.
Most people have been groaning,
Saying it is as though 5 months has passed.
Somehow,
I feel eager to go back to school.

Weird huh?

Well,
It's 6am
And I'm wide awake.
It's weird you know?
When it's time for me to go to school,
I couldn't wake up in the morning.
When it's time for me to watch Naruto,
I could sleep at 2am and wake up at 4.30am,
Automatically.

Anyways,
The Japanese wording at the top
It's my name.
キンバリー

キンバリー

#46 Friend Or Fiend

Friend
Fiend

Just a letter difference.
It's a small thing,
But a big change.

I don't have to explain what does
Friend
And
Fiend
Means right?
If you don't understand...
Go check the dictionary.

I have no intention of making
Friends whom doesn't want to have
Anything to do with me.
It's not only a waste of time.
But a waste of effort too.

For some reasons,
I've been aching to go to school.
Maybe it's the distractions
Or, the pain I yearn so much for.

Or maybe is that I'm going to see
Haoyii's expression when I'm going to give him
A present for his
Ultra late birthday.
I shall pretend it's for his Christmas present too.

The pain I yearn so much for

#45 What I Want., I Must Get

That sounds demanding.
Anyways,
Yes,
What I want, I must get.
By earning it.

I've finally found how does the Sasuke doll looks like.
Like the one bellow my header.

I want to buy the plush,
Using MY own money.
I mean,
Why can't she let me buy MY own stuff,
Using MY own MONEY!?

I don't care.
I vowed to myself,
I must have that plush...

No matter what happens!

Must have that plush

#44 Everything New

For the New Year,
Everybody has to go to a new school/class,
Wear new uniform,
New pencilbox

.........

Okay,
I have no time to talk about other people
When I am having a teenage crisis.
I CAN'T GET TO WATCH NARUTO!!!
Why must the world be so cruel to me?
I have done nothing wrong
[Except that I hate it so much]
I mean,
I'm a good girl,
[Not really, no]
And I still want my Sasuke doll.

Anyways,
New year,
New hairstyle,
New braces?
New key chain,
New glasses?
New attitude.
New life

Everything is so new right now.
I'm thinking of sitting alone in class this year.
Less attraction?
Or rather,
I'm just being lonely again.
shrugs shoulders
I don' know.

Just in case if Marissa is reading this,
I haven got your Christmas present... yet.

#43 Time To Rise And Go Back Straight To Hell

I can't believe the holidays are going to be over!
groan
I totally regretted not waking up early very morning
Through out the whole month!
If not,
I could have almost finish Naruto
And start Naruto Shippuden!
So not fair.
I am now at episode 138.
Well,
I haven watch it yet,
Still loading.
Heh.
Only 82 more to go!

School's tomorrow.
Means no more using the com for the whole week.
Only once a week!
groan
I haven even buy my exercise books!
groan
Stupid school!

My cousin once told me
That loneliness is very suffering.
You have no idea, girl.
I have been suffering for such a long time.
Watching Naruto makes me realized,
How painful I feel.

I don't know what to do.
There is so many things for me to write
But I have no idea where to start!
Shall I be the one whom sits alone in a dark corner?
Or the one who wants to be popular?

I'm going for the one whom sits alone.
Do you know that being alone all the time,
Can drive you crazy?
Can make you feel insane?

There is so many times that I feel like
Taking a gun out
And point at you and shoot you dead!
I would really like to see your blood,
Splatter all over the wall,
On the floor,
On to my face!

The anger in my heart,
Has turned a red pumping heart
Into a dark, cold stone.
Bitterness in me
Has run though my veins,
Causing me to think dark thoughts all the time.

When I look at you,
Anger boils up in me.
There are so many ways to calm down,
And I chose to think up do many ways
I could just make you suffer
As though you feel like you're in hell.

I don't think I can type anymore.
Any longer,
I could spoil the keyboard by smashing it with my fist.
Sorrow and Grief
Are now part of me...

Sit alone in a dark corner,
Watching you with hatred burning in my eyes

#42 Early Morning Series

Now a days my life has been so horrible.
Both mom and sister slapped me across the face.
Total slap,
3
In two days time.

Somehow,
It doesn't hurt,
Well,
Not much anyways.
All I could do was to try and hold back
The anger in me.
The anger that I could no longer control.
You have no fucking idea
How much I wanted to break their hands at that moment.

So, right now,
All I could do is to ignore her.

Yesterday,
I went for blood test.
It's no biggy.
It stings,
Yes,
But hurt?
Hell no!

She tried to talk to me,
Asking me does it hurt.
Since when did we started talking?
Since when peace suddenly came?
I ignored her.
When she took her test,
She closed her eyes
And started whimpering.
How pathetic!
The next thing I know,
It's that she was crying.
I felt a tug at the side of my mouth.
No longer in control of my smirk.
I walked out of the room
Towards my mother,
Smirking all the way.

Hell!
If you think I'm mean,
That woman deserves it!
Ain't my fault she's afraid of needles.
Hey!
I took it too,
And I'm not so keen bout it either!

At night,
I was watching 1408.
It's some ghost movie.
Not really frightening though.
She went upstairs to do her nails
Because she's scared to watch.
-rolls eyes-
I know!
After doing her nails,
She came downstairs,
Stood for a little while,
Her eyes on the television,
And she started screaming.
What the hell!?

My mother asked her
Whats wrong with her now a days.
Finally!
My mother noticed!
My sister just shrugged and said something.
I blocked out her voice and concentrate at the movie.

Uh,
I'm too lazy to write.
I shall resume watching Naruto.

What the hell