#197 Fear My Sword

Oh gosh.
It's been a very boring week for me
And I actually studied my history.
Don't give me that look.
I study, okay? :3
I'm aiming to get better than last time marks :)

Been pretty depressed lately.
Am not sure why.
Must be the disease I'm having inside me.
How do I currently feel right now?
Well,
I feel like that there is a small tornado inside of me;
Waiting for me to unleashed it.
Bit by bit that is.
Yet,
I feel this small satisfaction inside of me.
A smug smile always appear on my face
When someone does something wrong.
What the hell is wrong with me?
Am I some kind of crazy and weird being?
Who only appear to be happy when others are in pain?
Do I really care what other felt?
Do I really want to help others?
If so, was it out of kindness?
Was it out of compassion?
Or I just want to stir things up a little?
I'm a weirdo.

I'm grateful for Syaa and Lai Kwan
To listen to my complains.
But I feel guilty.
Guilty of burdening them with my stupid matters.

"It's just a small matter," I said.
"If it's small, then why are you depressed?" Lai Kwan shot back.

I don't know, Lai Kwan.
I just don't know.


I'm a weirdo